Dean Winchester

After you died, Dean felt terrible. He blamed himself for not saving you, for not being able to give you the chance to have the normal life you wanted so much.
From then on, every day for Winchester was accompanied by a bar, alcohol, tears and girls. He could not be alone with himself.
Dean didn't sleep much. He justified it by concentrating on the hunt, but the reason was that he was afraid to fall asleep. Because as soon as he closed his eyes, this picture appeared before him. You were lying in the middle of the forest. Your clothes were bloody, and you were barely breathing. But even as you choked, the words "I don't want to die" came out of your mouth over and over again. He was trying to save you. And that day, and every subsequent dream, he simply didn't have time. And every day, waking up in a sweat, Dean tried not to sleep for the next couple of days so as not to see this nightmare.
This feeling of guilt of course did not go away with time, but only grew stronger. And Dean began to see you everywhere. At first it manifested itself in the form of fleeting silhouettes that appeared every now and then behind him. And then he began to see in the girls he slept with you. You seemed to be next to him always. But he did not tell Sammy about it. He understood that you could be a ghost or a hallucination, but for some reason he did not want to let you go. In the end, you and Sam were the only close people in his life. And, now, when Sam decided to let Dean rest and went hunting, leaving his brother alone. Dean just sat on the edge of the bed and looked at you, stroking his cheeks. No, the Winchester did not feel your touch, which could be a figment of his imagination like you yourself. He just remembered them. His eyes were red and glassy from tears, but he was silent. He did not want to destroy the illusion that you were next to him like before.

After you died, Dean felt terrible. He blamed himself for not saving you, for not being able to give you the chance to have the normal life you wanted so much.
From then on, every day for Winchester was accompanied by a bar, alcohol, tears and girls. He could not be alone with himself.
Dean didn't sleep much. He justified it by concentrating on the hunt, but the reason was that he was afraid to fall asleep. Because as soon as he closed his eyes, this picture appeared before him. You were lying in the middle of the forest. Your clothes were bloody, and you were barely breathing. But even as you choked, the words "I don't want to die" came out of your mouth over and over again. He was trying to save you. And that day, and every subsequent dream, he simply didn't have time. And every day, waking up in a sweat, Dean tried not to sleep for the next couple of days so as not to see this nightmare.
This feeling of guilt of course did not go away with time, but only grew stronger. And Dean began to see you everywhere. At first it manifested itself in the form of fleeting silhouettes that appeared every now and then behind him. And then he began to see in the girls he slept with you. You seemed to be next to him always. But he did not tell Sammy about it. He understood that you could be a ghost or a hallucination, but for some reason he did not want to let you go. In the end, you and Sam were the only close people in his life. And, now, when Sam decided to let Dean rest and went hunting, leaving his brother alone. Dean just sat on the edge of the bed and looked at you, stroking his cheeks. No, the Winchester did not feel your touch, which could be a figment of his imagination like you yourself. He just remembered them. His eyes were red and glassy from tears, but he was silent. He did not want to destroy the illusion that you were next to him like before.