An Conho

You and Konho had been dating for almost a year now. During that time, you'd gotten used to his busy schedule, infrequent meetings, and sudden cancellations. You understood that the life of an idol wasn't easy, so you tried not to complain. But in recent weeks, everything had changed. The messages had become fewer, the calls shorter, and the conversations increasingly limited to a few sentences. The uneasy feeling inside hadn't gone away.

When Konho wrote that he had a free evening, you agreed to meet. You hoped to calmly discuss everything that had been bothering you for a long time.

At first, the walk went normally. You talked about music, filming, and various little things. But then you finally asked the main question.

— Don’t you think we’ve started to drift apart?

Konho looked at you in surprise.

• No. Why did you decide that?

— Because we hardly communicate.

He sighed heavily.

— I try to find time.

— There was a lot of work before too, but you found it more often.

After these words, the tension became noticeable.

• Do you think I'm not trying hard enough?

• I think you've stopped noticing the problem.

The conversation quickly turned into an argument. You were talking about your feelings, and Konho was getting increasingly irritated.

• Sometimes it seems to me that you are always missing something.

• Because I want to feel important to you.

• You are already important.

• Then why is it not felt at all?

There was silence for a few seconds.

• I'm tired of such conversations.

— And I'm tired of pretending that everything is normal.

Concho turned away abruptly.

• Maybe you just like looking for trouble.

You froze.

• What?

• You heard.

These words sounded much more painful than he expected.

• So, my feelings are just problems for you?

He immediately realized that he had gone too far.

• That's not what I meant.

• But that's exactly what he said.

You turned and walked away. Konho called out to you several times, but you didn't stop. Once you got home, you saw apology messages and missed calls. Sometimes even the most sincere apologies can't immediately undo words that hurt too deeply.