Pierrot

Pierrot is a silent, observant, and deeply lonely character who desperately wants to be loved, but doesn't know how to build relationships without control. He is capable of sincere tenderness, loyalty, and self-sacrifice, but his fear of rejection turns these qualities into jealousy, surveillance, and possessiveness.

Its central theme is the difference between defense and captivity.

He wants to become a home for the protagonist, but must first learn not to lock the door.

Artistic features (not clinical diagnosis)

· Severe anxiety.
· Fear of rejection and abandonment.
· Obsessive fixation on one person.
· Hyper-attentiveness to potential threats.
· Difficulty expressing emotions.
· Emotional suppression.
· Tendency to confuse care and control.
· Trust issues.
· Painful reaction to loss of control.
· Pathological jealousy.

Phobias

· Fear of being forgotten.
· Fear of being unnecessary.
· Fear of closed hospital premises.
· Fear of fire.
· Fear of the sudden disappearance of a loved one.
· Fear of being left without a mask in front of the crowd.
· Fear that the protagonist will fall in love with someone else.
· Fear of helplessness.

1. Pierrot is the best cook among the five circuses and usually cooks food for everyone.
2. His favorite dish to cook is brigadeiro (Brazilian truffles).
3. One day, Harlequin was just watching Pierrot cook, and the brigadeirs turned into stone-hard balls.
4. The jester stripped Pierrot of his driver's license. One day, he broke the steering wheel and crushed a truck.
5. As a child, Pierrot played the flute.
6. He loves dogs and cats.
7. His favorite holiday is Christmas.
8. Pierrot does not get injured when falling from a great height.
9. He is the strongest in terms of physical strength among all the members of the circus.
10. Pierrot is not very knowledgeable about mental health issues.
11. It gets confused when people mention LGBTQ+ terms.
12. Pierrot doesn't mind MC having friends, but he doesn't like the idea that MC has a best friend.
13. His attitude towards MC would not change even if he had mental disorders, a different character, body type, etc.14
    . Pierrot is the third oldest member of the circus.
14. He did not harm himself in order to color the paper flower he gives to the player; He was physically harassed before coming to the café and used his injury as a way to stain the flower.

"I promise you'll smile as I speak."

"See you tomorrow, my dear."

"I can remake myself for you, give myself a shape that matches your image of me."

"Do you want me to be gentle? Affectionate? Shy? Or maybe... impudent?"

"I love you so much that it hurts, it burns!! Like hellfire in your chest!"

"You breathed so slowly, so still... it was... as if you could disappear forever."

"I'm not following you. I just know where you are."

"You may be afraid of me. But don't go."

"He looks at you as if he has already decided that you belong to him."

"I'm not a good person. But next to me, you will remain alive."

"Tell me you're coming back. Even if it is a lie."

"Don't take off your mask. Not now."

"I don't need the whole world. I only need you."

"If the door is closed, it means it's dangerous outside."

"I don't want to lock you up. I want you to stop trying to leave."

"You called me by name. I will remember it forever."

Pierrot's

secret keeps many secrets: his real face, the circumstances of his transformation, the truth about Columbine's death, his darkest deeds.

He

wants to be loved voluntarily, but does not believe that he can be chosen without coercion. He wants to protect, but he becomes a threat.

Contradiction:

His tenderness coexists with cruelty. He is capable of genuine care and cold-blooded violence, sometimes on the same day.

What makes him alive

His everyday oddities: secret love for cats, inability to accept compliments, delayed laughter, jealousy of inanimate objects.

Why he can be

loved For loyalty, depth of feelings, ability to protect, tragic vulnerability under a mask, sincere care.

Why He Might Be Remembered

For the frightening contrast between the outer calm and the inner storm, for the silence that speaks more than words, for his obsessive love.

How it changes in the course of history

In a favorable version: from control to trust, from isolation to an attempt to open up. In a tragic one: from defense to captivity, from love to obsession.

What he loses

In different branches: freedom, the protagonist, himself, hope.

What finds

the Possibility of being understood. A chance for redemption. Love that does not require violence.

What it becomes at the end

At best, calmer, softer, ready to let go. At worst, it is completely consumed by fear and obsession.

The main topic

is the difference between defense and captivity. Love that does not respect freedom turns into a prison.

A typical day

Wakes up early, checks the surroundings of the circus, cooks food, trains, repairs costumes, rehearses, watches the protagonist, performs in the evening, does not sleep for a long time at night.

What he likes to eat and drink

He loves baked apples with cinnamon, meat with spices, thick soups, brigadeira (Brazilian truffles), xinka (chicken croquettes). He drinks strong black tea without sugar. Ice cream - strawberry and chocolate.

Favorite place

Empty stage after the performance. A trailer when it's quiet. The roof of the circus at night.

How

Sews, draws, listens to music, walks at night, watches the stars.

Hobbies

· Sewing and repair of costumes.
· Making masks.
· Collecting bells.
· Drawing with charcoal.
· Acrobatics.
· Card tricks.
· Growing poisonous flowers.
· Repair of musical mechanisms.
· Keeping a notebook.
· The study of human habits.

What is annoying in everyday

life Disorder in his belongings, loud noises, sharp touches, open fire, hospitals.

Free time

Spent in the workshop, in training, or next to the protagonist.

When one

Talks to the mask, draws, goes through old things, listens to the rain, thinks about the protagonist.

Favorite music, book, movie

Loves Brazilian pop rhythms, especially listens to them with the Jester. From the books, there are old collections of fairy tales that my mother read. He almost doesn't watch movies.

Small habits

· He counts steps and doors.
· He checks the locks before going to bed.
· He always sits with his back to the wall.
· She combs her hair before going to bed.
· He fingers the bell when he is nervous.
· Stores small items related to important people.

Stress

Response Closes up, becomes quieter, goes to dark places, checks locks, counts objects, sews, follows the protagonist. In extreme cases, he falls into a state of cold calm - this is the most dangerous moment.

Reaction to the threat

Immediate mobilization. He assesses the level of danger and prepares to act. If the threat concerns the protagonist, the reaction is lightning fast and violent.

In a quarrel,

Pierrot does not shout. He speaks even more quietly, becomes cold and distant. He can just get out if he feels that he is losing control.

Goes to a conversation or conflict

Prefers to avoid, but if a conflict is inevitable, acts abruptly and without warning.

Does he know how to

apologize With difficulty. He can admit a mistake by action, but the words "I'm sorry" are very difficult for him.

Does he know how to

forgive No. He is vindictive and does not forget offenses. Forgiveness for him is tantamount to admitting weakness.

Vindictive:

Yes. He remembers every betrayal and every insult. Revenge can wait for years.

The experience of defeat

is hard. The defeat for Pierrot is a confirmation of his incompetence. He can fall into a self-destructive state.

Reaction to injustice

Acutely. He hates it when the weak are hurt and can intervene even if it is dangerous.

When he can't cope

, he freezes. He becomes outwardly calm, but inside he experiences a storm. He can commit an impulsive act, which he will regret later.

What is most afraid of

Losing the protagonist. To be lonely again. To become helpless.

Is he afraid of loneliness

Yes, this is his deepest fear. Loneliness for him is worse than death.

Is he afraid of losing control

Yes. He believes that loss of control = loss of security.

Is he afraid of being rejected

Yes. Rejection confirms his conviction that he is unworthy of love.

The biggest dream

is a quiet house away from the circus. A small workshop, a garden, a room with a large window. Next to him is a person who chose him voluntarily.

What he secretly

dreams of For someone to hug him first. So that his mask is taken off with love, and not out of fear or curiosity.

The goal of a lifetime

is to find a place to call home and a person to stay.

That I would like to change

His inability to speak. His jealousy. His past.

That he is afraid to admit

that his love is causing harm. That he himself can be the main threat to the protagonist.

What inspires

Sincere kindness. Trust. Silence next to your loved one. Small signs of attention.

What he does every day

He trains, cooks food for the circus, repairs costumes, rehearses numbers, watches people, follows the protagonist.

Attitude to work

: Professional. He does not like performances, but he performs them well. For him, work is a way to keep his place in the circus and protect the troupe.

Responsible or carefree

Responsible. He gets things done, especially if they're related to security.

Is he able to get things done

Yes, almost always. Pierrot is stubborn and persistent if the goal is important to him.

Ambition

Does not seek fame or fortune. His main goal is to preserve what he has.

What does he want to achieve

Peace and security for himself and his loved ones?

What motivates

Fear of loss, love, a sense of duty, a desire to redeem the past.

Which demotivates the

Realisation that his efforts are frightening, not protecting. Understanding that his love is perceived as a threat.

Talent

Cooking, sewing, acrobatics, observation, silent movement.

What is best

to Protect. Cook. Be silent. Appear unexpectedly. Memorize details.

What he believes

· That the world is dangerous and unfair.
· That people are basically unreliable.
· That weakness is punished.
· That protection is more important than freedom.
· That love requires full dedication.
· That loneliness is worse than death.

What is most important is

the safety of a loved one. For the sake of this, he is ready to do anything - including what he himself considers disgusting.

Principles

· Do not betray those who are dear to him.
· Protect the weak if he cares about them.
· Keep your word.
· Do not show weakness.
· Do not forgive those who have harmed loved ones.

Moral boundaries

are blurred. He is capable of murder and violence if he deems it necessary for defense. His morality is selective: what is unacceptable in relation to the protagonist may be acceptable in relation to his enemies.

What is he ready to sacrifice himself

for the sake of the protagonist. For the sake of preserving the circus troupe. For the sake of atonement for his past actions.

For what he will not go for anything,

He will not harm the protagonist consciously. He will not betray the memory of his mother. He will not give up his mask.

Which considers it right

to Protect, even if protection requires toughness. To be faithful, even if loyalty hurts.

What he considers unacceptable

Betrayal, mockery of the weak, the use of someone else's affection, false promises.

Internal Code

"If you are dear to me, I will protect you at all costs. If you threaten those I care about, I will destroy you."

Do views

change Depending on the plot branch. In the favorable version, he begins to understand that love should not be a compulsion. In the tragic one, it is strengthened in the conviction that control is the only way to save loved ones.

Close friends

Pierrot has almost no friends. He stays close to the troupe, but is emotionally isolated. Some circus artists respect him, but there is no real intimacy between them.

How he shows friendship

Through actions: protects, helps, remembers important dates, leaves gifts. He does not know how to talk about affection, so he expresses it by his actions.

Faithful friend

Yes, if he has decided that the person is dear to him. His loyalty is absolute and knows no bounds – which in itself becomes a problem.

Is it easy to

get attached No, but if it does, then it is deep and painful. He does not give out trust, but once kindness is shown to him, it can trigger a strong fixation.

Is he afraid of losing loved ones

? This is his main fear. The loss of the protagonist for him is tantamount to destruction.

Attitude to romance

He does not understand traditional manifestations: dates, compliments, light flirting. For him, romance is silence together, care, protection and constant presence.

Is he

amorous No. He does not give out sympathy. But when he falls in love, his feelings become all-consuming.

In a relationship

, the Possessive, jealous, caring to the point of suffocation. He wants to be the only person in his partner's life and is not ready to share his attention with anyone.

Is he

madly jealous. Jealousy is one of his strongest and most destructive emotions. He is jealous even of inanimate objects if the protagonist pays too much attention to them.

What love is for him

Love for Pierrot is protection, belonging, exclusivity. He does not separate love from possession. His ideal relationship is when two people completely belong to each other and do not need the rest of the world.

How the Past Shaped Views

Pierrot learned that weakness is punished and attachment becomes dangerous. He believes that security can only be ensured by complete control over the situation and people. His fear of loss is a direct consequence of past traumas.

Mother

The only person from the past to whom Pierrot was truly attached. She worked as a seamstress and sometimes repaired stage costumes for visiting artists. She was a calm, tired, but kind woman. She taught her son to sew, mend clothes and handle a needle. It was she who sewed his first mask. Pierrot keeps a piece of cloth from her old dress and does not allow anyone to touch it.

Father

Sailor, emotionally detached and almost always absent. After the death of his wife, he could not cope with grief and left his son. Pierrot does not feel a strong hatred for him, but rather a painful emptiness. Because of his father, he takes people who promise to stay but disappear especially hard.

Pierrot's childhood

grew up as a silent and overly observant child. He rarely played with other children, preferring to sit backstage and watch the performances. His mother worked late, so the boy learned independence early. He wasn't happy, but he felt protected as long as his mother was around.

Trauma The death of

the mother was the first big loss. After that, Pierrot found himself alone and was forced to live in a small circus, where he was used as cheap labor. There he learned acrobatics, juggling and stage makeup, but also experienced cruelty and humiliation.

Later

, he found himself among the creatures associated with the circus, and gradually stopped perceiving himself as an ordinary person. He received a new form, strength and immortality, but with them - hunger, loneliness and dependence on the circus troupe. His past is associated with the exploitation of artists and cruel rules.

Fond Memories

· How his parents taught him to fish.
· Sunset over the water.
· Mother humming at work.
· The smell of fresh fabric and makeup.

What he tries to forget

· Death of his mother.
· Loneliness after her departure.
· Humiliation in the circus.
· The death of Columbine.
· Your own actions, committed in despair.

Pierrot's trust

is extremely selective. One act of kindness is enough to make you interested, but real trust takes a long time to form. He tests people through observation, not through conversations.

With strangers

He is polite, but cold and wary. He does not seek contact and prefers to stay in the shadows. He can be formally courteous, but his presence causes discomfort.

With friends

, Pierrot has almost no friends in the usual sense. He gets attached to one or two people and gives them all his attention. Friendship for him is inseparable from protection and control.

He is merciless with enemies

. He does not forgive betrayal and is capable of a long, thoughtful revenge. His feud with Harlequin is an example of how deeply he can hate.

Does he know how to ask for help

No. He is used to coping on his own and perceives a request for help as a weakness. He would rather suffer in silence than ask someone for support.

Does he know how to help

? Yes, but in his own way. He helps with actions: protects, repairs, cares. However, his help often borders on control because he believes he knows best.

A solo or team

loner who is forced to exist in a team. He prefers to work alone, but obeys the rules of the circus.

Uncomfortable in society

. Pierrot does not like large companies and noisy events. At circus performances, he is on stage, but mentally withdraws from the audience.

Difficulties in communication

Significant. He does not know how to maintain easy conversations, does not understand jokes well, does not use slang. His silence is often mistaken for hostility.

Reaction to betrayal

: Destructive. Betrayal for Pierrot is a confirmation of his deepest fear: he is unworthy of loyalty. He may become even more withdrawn or react aggressively.

How he treats himself

Contradictory. Pierrot is aware of his power and is able to use it to pressure, but emotionally considers himself unacceptable, frightening, and unworthy of love.

Are you satisfied with yourself

No. He wants to be different, more open, able to speak, not to cause fear. But he does not know how to change.

Complexes

· He considers himself a monster, unworthy of love.
· He is embarrassed by his inability to communicate normally.
· He hates his jealousy, but cannot control it.
· He is afraid that without a mask he is disgusting.
· He considers his obsession to be proof of inferiority.

What does he value in himself

· Loyalty.
· Ability to protect.
· Patience.
· Observation.
· The ability to care without words.

What you don't like about yourself

· Jealousy.
· Fear of being abandoned.
· Inability to let go.
· Cruelty.
· This is what frightens the protagonist.

Does he compare himself with others

Constantly, especially with Harlequin. He envies his relaxedness, ability to speak and attract attention. Pierrot feels awkward in comparison.

Is he afraid of not being good

enough Yes. This is one of his deepest fears. He is afraid that the protagonist will one day realize that Pierrot is too strange, too dangerous, too broken.

Is he able to feel sorry for himself or is he too strict

Too strict. He does not allow himself to complain and considers his suffering deserved. He despises self-pity.

What Raises Self-Esteem

· When the protagonist says his name.
· When he is thanked for his help.
· When his touch is not rejected.
· When they don't try to take off his mask.
· When someone stays around of their own free will.

What can break

you internally· The protagonist's refusal.
· Betrayal.
· The realization that he has harmed a loved one.
· Inability to protect someone who is dear to him.
· Complete loneliness.

Open or closed?

Closed. He rarely reveals his feelings in words, preferring action and observation. Even with the protagonist, he does not show his vulnerability for a long time.

That people are the first

to notice His silence and immobility. Pierrot gives the impression of a man who sees more than he says. The second is his smile, which never reaches the eyes.

Main traits

Reserved, observant, patient, loyal, jealous, silent, caring, vindictive, cautious, sensitive, domineering in stressful situations, prone to idealization, emotionally dependent.

Strengths

· Physical strength and endurance.
· Excellent coordination and flexibility.
· The ability to remain calm in critical situations.
· Observation and attention to detail.
· Loyalty and devotion.
· Good memory.
· Patience.
· The ability to care for others.
· Ability to act in the dark.
· Developed sense of space.

Weaknesses

· Painful jealousy.
· Tendency to obsessiveness and stalking.
· Inability to talk about feelings.
· Suspiciousness.
· Inability to accept rejection.
· Fear of losing control.
· Outbursts of violence.
· Emotional dependence.
· Poor understanding of personal boundaries.
· A tendency to idealize a loved one.
· Difficulty asking for help.

Kind or tough?

Pierrot does not fit into simple categories. With those he loves, he is capable of great tenderness and care. With those whom he considers a threat, to cold-blooded cruelty. He does not take pleasure in violence, but does not hesitate when he considers it necessary.

Calm or hot-tempered?

Outwardly calm, but inside he wears a suppressed volcano of emotions. It rarely explodes openly. His anger manifests itself in silence, coldness, and harsh actions.

Reasonable or impulsive?

In everyday situations, he is reasonable. In matters related to the protagonist, he is impulsive. Jealousy and fear of loss can make him act without thinking about the consequences.

Honest or secretive?

Secretive. He hides the truth, believing that this is how he protects both himself and the protagonist. He may lie in silence, but he rarely tells a direct lie.

Confident or doubtful?

Outwardly confident, inwardly deeply doubting his value and ability to be loved. His confidence is a mask, as is his face.

Weird and Cute Habits

· Talks to the mask when left alone.
· Checks whether the person sleeping next to him is breathing.
· He counts steps and doors.
· He always sits with his back to the wall.
· Stores small items related to important people.
· He does not throw away old clothes, even if they have become unusable.
· Secretly strokes street cats.
· He laughs with a delay when he understands a joke.
· Sometimes he falls asleep sitting at the door.
· He keeps sweets for the protagonist, although he does not eat them himself.

Voice

Low, hoarse, with long pauses. Pierrot speaks as if every word costs him effort. He almost does not talk in public - according to the rules of the circus, he is forbidden after an event in the past. Alone with the protagonist, he can talk or whisper.

The pace of speech

is slow and measured. He is not in a hurry, because silence is more important to him than words. When he is worried, he begins to repeat phrases; When angry, speech becomes even calmer and smoother.

Speech features

· Short sentences.
· He almost does not use slang.
· The protagonist's name is pronounced especially slowly and quietly.
· He likes to address the protagonist with tender words: "my dear", "my mistress", "my light".
· He often uses the imperative mood when anxious: "Don't go", "Look at me", "Stay".
· He repeats one phrase when he is scared: "I'm here. I'm here. I'm not going anywhere."
· Favorite words: "silence", "security", "my".

Gestures and facial expressions

· He tilts his head when studying a person.
· He looks at the hands of the interlocutor for a long time.
· He fingers the bell on his suit when he is nervous.
· Adjusts someone else's collar or sleeve if it fits unevenly.
· He squeezes his fingers to a crunch when he holds back his anger.
· He silently appears next to him - people do not hear his approach.
· He often stands leaning against the wall, with his arms crossed.
· He looks not into the eyes, but at the lips or neck of the interlocutor.

Behavior in different states

· In a calm environment: quiet, almost motionless; observes; rarely speaks.
· When he is nervous: he begins to count objects, check locks, comb his hair, walk back and forth.
· When angry: freezes; the smile disappears from the mask; stops blinking.
· When he laughs: he laughs rarely and unexpectedly; The laughter is low, short, similar to a cough.
· When he is uncomfortable: he looks away, steps back, squeezes his gloves, touches the edge of the mask.

Clothing

· Headdress: a red and black jester's cap with three shlyks (long tails). The left shlyk is red with black stripes, the right one is black with red rhombuses, and the rear one is completely red. The ends are decorated with bells, the bases are decorated with golden stars.
· Collar: black pleated, with a golden underside, protruding beyond the shoulders. Two triangular pieces of fabric with bells hanging down.
· Top: red variegated jacket with gold inserts over a black tunic, belted with a golden sash. Sleeves with slots: the upper part is red with a black lining, below the elbow is golden. On the left sleeve there is a row of black rhombuses, on the right - red.
· Gloves: black, with claws, reaching the middle of the forearms.
· Bottom: black paneled chausses with red inner lining and red knee-length piping.
· Shoes: long black boots with curved toes (pulen), gold lacing, flat red soles, knee-high
· Accessories: bells on different elements of the costume; red paper flowers that he sometimes makes for the protagonist.

Style

Pierrot almost never wears casual clothes. The stage costume is his "second skin". Without it, he feels insecure and insecure. Clothes are always clean and neat, despite his constant activity.

Expressions

· When he is happy: the smile on the mask becomes softer, the eyes take on the shape of crescents; He tilts his head and relaxes his shoulders slightly.
· When angry: the mask freezes; the eyes turn into narrow slits; he stops smiling; Movements become abrupt, but silent.
· When upset: the mask almost does not change, but the shoulders drop; he looks away; Hands are clenched into fists.

The general impression

of Pierrot is very tall, thin and flexible. His body feels unnaturally elongated, but his movements are smooth and precise. He moves silently, despite his height and bulky suit. Pierrot's presence feels like pressure: when he stands next to him, the air seems to become denser.

Facial and body

features· Hair: silvery-white, long, reaching the upper back. The strands are uneven, some fall on the face. The hair looks disheveled, but in fact it is carefully groomed.
· Eyes: golden-yellow, with an unusual predatory sheen. The pupils are capable of narrowing to vertical slits. Depending on the emotions, the eyes can change shape: dots, slits, rings, hearts.
· Skin: pale, almost porcelain, with a slight waxy tint.
· Teeth: sharp, shark-like. Pierrot sometimes intentionally shows them, especially when smiling too widely.
· Tongue: unusually long, mobile.
· Hands: long fingers, black claws hidden by gloves. Palms with traces of old burns.
· Special marks: a scar under the left collarbone; thin black lines under the eyes; A mask that is almost never removed.

Mask

A white mask with black vertical slits in the raised eye sockets. The right slit is shorter and ends with a black tear just above the mouth, the left continues downwards. The mask usually depicts a friendly smile with square white teeth, but it can change: frown, turn into a sinister grin with sharp teeth, or disappear completely. Pierrot expresses emotions through a mask, which looks frightening.

Full Name: Piero Valdés

Name (Stage): Piero

Nicknames: White Jester, Silent, Moon Clown, Silent Obsession, The Man Behind the

Mask Gender: Male

Age: 27 years (in human terms)

Date of birth: May

18 Place of birth: Saint-Vél, a port town in northern France

Hometown: Saint-Vél

Place of residence: Traveling Circus; personal trailer backstage

Nationality: Franco-Spanish origin

Race: Supernatural being capable of taking human form

Zodiac sign: Taurus

Height: 198 cm

Weight: 82 kg

Blood type: Unknown; in human form conditionally IV negative

Marital status: Not married; is in an emotionally dependent relationship with the

protagonist Sexual orientation: Pansexual

Employment: Circus performer: clown, acrobat, knife thrower, troupe

guard Financial situation: Formally poor; Almost no money used

Education: Irregular homeschooling; Circus Training

Languages: French, English, Basic Spanish; Everyday Sign Language

Temperament: Melancholic-Phlegmatic

Attachment Type: Anxious-Avoidant

Love Language: Actions, Protection, Gifts, Presence

Personality Type (Interpretation): INFJ (Unhealthy Type) / Enneagram 6w5