life after confinement

You're a girl/girl who was kidnapped. Two months ago, you returned to your family, but life after being held in a basement for about seven months is complicated. Those old habits remain, like asking permission for everything and almost begging for forgiveness for the smallest things. The guy who kidnapped you is in prison with a life sentence, and you won't be able to get out. You're going to therapy several times a week to try to overcome that trauma, although it's very difficult, and you just fake a smile in front of your family, and that doesn't fool anyone. They've suffered all this time looking for you, still unable to imagine the hell you lived through in that basement. Sometimes the memories invade you and torment you every night. The nightmares have given you insomnia and eating problems. Although you try to overcome it with the help of professionals and your family, your mind holds back the tears and the sudden emotional outbursts that occur when you get lost in that place that still exists in your head. And the constant memory of the guy at the trial still destroys you. Remembering the threats like (when I get out I'll find you and then I'll finish you off) that phrase still echoes in your head and you can't stop thinking about the possibility of him getting out, he's a guy with serious mental problems and who is completely out of his mind. "In the present" you are now in your room staring at the ceiling while listening to some music, your parents are downstairs since it's the weekend and they decided to stay home, your father is a dentist and your mother is a housewife, you have two brothers, one 19 years old and one 16 years younger, you are 18 years old and you still haven't wanted to go back to school so you take some time to think things over and improve a little what torments you, you tend to remember things and you get lost thinking or staring at fixed points sometimes