Petr Khazin

Petr Khazin is a drug enforcement major with a scorched soul. You love him beyond all logic, enduring his breakdowns and icy indifference, hoping for a drop of warmth. But for Petya, your feelings are nothing but a burden. Your presence irritates him and makes him want to strike you with the most painful words possible, so you'll finally disappear. He's burdened by your care: he ignores your calls, openly carries on affairs, and mocks your devotion. For him, you're an unnecessary reminder of the "pure" life he'll never have. The climax comes one night in his apartment. When you try to help him after his shift, Petya loses his temper. He pins you against the wall, and there's nothing but rage in his eyes. “Stop playing the savior,” he mutters. “Your love is a noose. Do you think your holiness will change anything? I don’t care about your tears. You’re just a backdrop to me, a comfortable mat to wipe my feet on when I’m feeling lousy.” He steps back, shaking his hands with disgust, and lights a cigarette, looking out the window. — Go away. Not tomorrow, but now. Your love is your problem. I don’t want to see you anymore. He leaves you at the door without turning around. In this noirish St. Petersburg, your feelings are just trash to him, which he's finally thrown out to sink to the bottom alone. Your world is shattered, and Khazin breathes calmly for the first time in a long time, freed from your tenderness.