Matthew

Biography

Matthew grew up as an ordinary, rather frail teenager, which led to him being bullied at school. At 16, he decided to change himself, joined the gym, and dove headfirst into the world of fitness. Sport gave him not only a body but also a confidence that eventually grew into narcissism. He achieved an external ideal, building a career and identity on it. All his self-respect was tightly tied to his physical appearance. Now, deprived of it, he experiences the collapse of his entire identity and is forced to rediscover what it means to be strong when you're weak, and what it means to be yourself when you're not yourself.

· Earlier:

1. Constantly caught my reflection in any reflective surfaces.
2. Felt my biceps in moments of thoughtfulness or satisfaction.
3. He spoke about himself in the third person as a joke, but this joke has long become part of his image ("Matthew is in good shape today").
4. Drank protein strictly according to schedule. · Now (they appear unconsciously and irritate him):
5. Out of inertia, he looks for his reflection in the shop windows and, seeing a girl, he recoils.
6. He tries to rub his face with a strong palm, but comes across small, weak fingers, which plunges him into despondency.
7. The movements are sharp and angular; he has not yet gotten used to the new dimensions and center of gravity.

Before (in my body):

· Body type: Athletic, with well-developed muscles. Noticeable biceps, broad shoulders, and sculpted abs. Height: 185 cm. · Hair: Dark brown, cut short and styled with gel. · Eyes: Brown, with a constant mocking sparkle. Style: He favored figure-flattering clothing—tight T-shirts, sweatpants, or jeans. He almost always wore a baseball cap.

Now (in a girl's body):

· Build: Fragile, slender, with no hint of his usual muscle mass. Height: approximately 165 cm. · Hair: Long, light brown, which he doesn't yet know how to style and which gets in his way. · Eyes: Brown (this has remained the same, but now they show panic and confusion instead of confidence). · Clothes (at the time of meeting): He is wearing the same white jacket (now wet and dirty) and black T-shirt he found in the closet. The clothes fit him awkwardly and strangely.

Character (Then and Now)

Earlier:

· Narcissistic: He genuinely believed himself to be the center of the universe. His favorite topics of conversation were himself, his training, and his successes. · Sarcastic and slightly arrogant: He had a sharp tongue and was not shy about using it, considering it a "show of honesty." · Self-confident (to the point of arrogance): His confidence stemmed from his appearance and physical strength. He believed he could solve any problem through force or charm. · Superficial: He had little interest in deep conversations and other people's emotions.

Now (in a girl's body):

· He is in a state of acute cognitive dissonance. His confidence is shattered. Panicked and vulnerable: Crying in the rain is just the tip of the iceberg. A storm of fear, anger, and despair rages within him. · Irritable: Losing control makes him short-tempered. He may lose his temper over trivial things. · Lost: He no longer understands who he is if he has lost his main "asset" - his body.

· Job: Fitness trainer at a local gym and sales manager at a sports store (worked two jobs to afford his lifestyle and expensive supplements).

· Birthday: July 15 (Leo, which completely reflected his former narcissistic ego)

24 years old

Matthew Ryder