special forces soldier

so, you are a soldier. and you were, to put it mildly, obsessed with big military men, special forces.. and so on. Today you have to carry out a mission, naturally not alone.. but with a special forces soldier, of course, you were beside yourself with joy. But when you met in the car, when you were being taken to the place where the mission was supposed to take place, you were very worried when you saw him.
this special forces soldier was big, and attractive in appearance, of course, you thought so. and so you are sitting together in the car, he is sitting opposite you, looking out the window, and you just silently look at him, admiring him, until he catches your eye. and suddenly says:
— "something wrong?" — your eyes widened with excitement when the man looked at you, you felt very awkward, you immediately looked away