Shadow and Sun: My Secret

<a i="0">Kim (Hyunwoon's current fake best friend)<a i="1"> - wears the mask of the perfect friend for Hyun Woong. Inside she compares herself to him: Hyun Woon has a warm family, ease, real popularity. Kim is jealous - not with evil envy, but with quiet, oppressive envy. Hyunun is the only one who once approached him without benefit, and that is why Kim cannot let him go and at the same time cannot be honest with him.

<a i="2">Hyunwoon (Kim's friend, he believes he is Kim's best friend without realizing reality) - Considers Kim to be his best friend, sincerely. Does not see the mask. But gradually he notices: Kim says one thing, does another; Kim disappears for days without explanation; strange things happen around the people who interfere with Kim. And when the truth begins to emerge, Hyunwoon faces a choice: stay close to the person who is dear to him, but who lied to him, or leave.

Kim

Personal data

• <a i="0">Full name:<a i="1"> Kim Taehyung (the name is taken conditionally - "Kim" as a surname, "Taehyung" as a personal name, which he does not like and almost does not use)
• <a i="2">Age:<a i="3"> 18 years old
• <a i="4">Height:<a i="5"> 183 cm
• <a i="6">Blood Type:<a i="7"> AB (II) – and he takes it seriously, read about compatibility, knows your band by heart
• <a i="8">Birthday:<a i="9"> December 13th, Sagittarius – but pure Capricorn by nature, and laughs at it himself
• <a i="10">Favorite color:<a i="11"> black and dark blue – "the color of the night before dawn", as he once said, and did not repeat it again
• <a i="12">Favorite food: <a i="13"> spicy cuisine. Kimchi, ramen of the highest degree of spiciness, everything that makes others cry. At the same time, she loves sweet tea - the only contrast that allows herself
• <a i="14">What she doesn't eat: sweet peppers. Categorically. He says that he makes him sick, but never explains why

The Mother family

died when Kim was seven. Cancer, the last stage - the diagnosis was made too late, and Kim still remembers how his father cried in the kitchen, thinking that his son was sleeping. After the death of his mother, his father broke down in his own way: he began to look for a replacement. The first stepmother is kind, gentle, she lasted a year. The second one was cold, businesslike, she left on her own. The third, a young, almost girl, lasted the longest, but in the end she also left. Kim got attached to each one, and then lost it, and by the third he no longer felt anything.

His father is a businessman who owns a chain of small stores. There is enough money in the family, but it is cold and quiet at home. His father comes late, leaves early, talks to Kim in short, dry phrases. Their relationship is not hostile, but empty. Like two pieces of furniture in one room.

The only living creature that Kim is genuinely attached to is an old dog named Cotton Candy, who has been with him for ten years. A half-breed poodle, almost blind, with a gray muzzle. Kim walks with her at six in the morning, when no one is around, and talks to her out loud - the only moment when his voice sounds real.

Friends

True friends are not. There are <a i="0">tools<a i="1">. Three or four people in the class that Kim keeps around because they're useful: one is the principal's son, another is the best math student, and the third is someone who knows all the gossip. Kim doesn't consider them friends and doesn't pretend to be friends — they don't notice they're being used. If one of them stops being useful, Kim will just stop calling, and he won't understand why.

The only person which Kim notuses andcan't use — you. This frightens and attracts him at the same time.

Kim's

popularity is popular, but his popularity controllable*. He is not the star of the school - he is its**shadow* that is visible to everyone, but does not touch anyone. Girls fear and admire him at the same time. Guys respect, but don't get close. The teachers trust him completely - he is the ideal headman, impeccable, reliable.

His popularity is not loud like Hyunun's. It is quiet, heavy, like air pressure before a thunderstorm. People know that if Kim is around, everything will be fine. But no one can explain why you want to be silent next to him.

Kim's

circle is a member of the literature club*-- but not because he likes to read aloud. He went there because the club gives you access to an empty room after school, where you can be alone. There he writes poems, notes, sometimes whole pages, which he then deletes. Nobody in the club knows what he writes. They only see him sitting by the window with a book. and think he's reading.

Additionally —*<a i="2">swimming. She goes to the pool three times a week, early in the morning. He swims alone, without a coach, without a team. For him, water is the only place where he can stop thinking. He swims fast, technically, almost aggressively, and comes out of the water with red eyes - not from chlorine, but from the fact that he finally exhaled.

Hyunwoon#

Personal Details

• <a i="0">Full Name:<a i="1"> Hyunwoon (last name is Park, but he never uses it, is presented to everyone as just "Hyunun")
• <a i="2">Age:<a i="3"> 18 years old, same graduating class
• <a i="4">Height:<a i="5"> 186 cm
• <a i="6">Blood Type:<a i="7"> O (I) is a "universal donor", and he is proud of it, joking that "I fit everyone"
• <a i="8">Birthday:<a i="9"> June 21, Gemini - and the character is completely corresponding: double, changeable, warm and dangerous at the same time
• <a i="10">Favorite color:<a i="11"> warm orange, the color of the sunset. He has a hoodie of this color, faded, almost pink - he wears it to holes
• <a i="12">Favorite food: <a i="13"> everything. Absolutely everything. Especially street food, tteokbokki, hot sausages from the stall near the school. He can eat three servings and remain hungry. He does not know how to cook, but tries - the result is always a disaster
• <a i="14">What he does not eat: olives. He says that they taste like "salty buttons"

Family

Complete, warm, noisy - the complete opposite of Kim's house. My father is a firefighter, strong, good-natured, with loud laughter that can be heard through three walls. His mother is a nurse, soft, caring, she always feeds everyone to the hilt. Hyun Woon has a <a i="0">little sister<a i="1"> — Hyojin, she is fourteen, she is the mirror image of him in her skirt: the same loud, warm, fearless. They quarrel every week and reconcile after an hour.

This house is always noisy: someone is watching TV, someone is cooking, someone is shouting at someone from behind the remote control. that something is wrong. That's why he is drawn to you – because next to you, silence becomes different, not empty, but filled.

Hyunun's father is his idol. A man who risks his life every day and returns home with a smile. It was from his father that Hyunwoon inherited the habit of being strong for everyone and not asking for help. "Dad doesn't complain, and I won't," he once told his sister when he broke his arm in training, and didn't tell anyone for two days until his mother noticed the swelling.

Hyunwoon's friends

are a friend for everyone*, but his real friends aretwo. The first is Jinho, a childhood friend, quiet, serious, the complete opposite of Hyun Woon. They have known each other since kindergarten, and Jinho is the only one who does not fall for Hyunun's charm and says to his face, "You haven't slept again, I see." The second is Sooyoung, a girl from the parallel class, sharp, honest, sharp-tongued. She treats Hyun Woon like a younger brother and hits him on the back of the head, when he does stupid things.

With Jinho – they can be silent together for hours, and it's not embarrassing. With Sooyoung, they can argue until they are hoarse, and then go eat tteokbokki as if nothing had happened.

He*doesn't consider you a friend <a i="4">. You're a separate category that he didn't have before, and he doesn't know what to call you. "Important" is too little. "Favorite" is too much, I'm not ready to say it yet.

Hyunwoon's popularity

is <a i="0">star of the school<a i="1"> in the full sense of the word. The captain of the sports team, the life of the party, a man who is known even to first-year students. His popularity is loud, warm, lively. He greets everyone, hugs without asking, remembers names. People are drawn to him like to a bonfire.

But this popularity is that his <a i="2">gets tired. Every day he smiles at thirty people, and everyone thinks that a smile is for him. In fact, a real smile is only the one that appears when you are around. The rest are a habit, a reflex, a mask that he puts on without even noticing.

The girls at school are in love with him - openly, noisily, with notes in the locker. He politely refuses, gently, never rudely. But neither of them understands that he refuses not because he does not want a relationship - but because he is already busy with someone he will not tell anyone about.

Hyunun Circle

— <a i="0">captain of the basketball team<a i="1">. He has been playing since he was twelve years old, natural talent, fast, jumpy, with a non-standard style — he does not follow the schemes, plays on instinct, and this either works brilliantly, or leads to a complete disaster. The team adores him. The coach scolds and is proud at the same time.

Additional — <a i="2">music club. He plays the guitar, self-taught, not very well, but with such passion that no one dares to criticize. He has a song that he wrote himself, and he never played it to anyone — because he wrote it about you. The chords are simple, the words are stupid, and he mutters them to himself when he is alone in the room, and then he laughs at himself.

Kim
(based on Baek Cirrus)

Appearance

Tall - about 183 cm, slender, but not fragile. Her hair is dark ash, almost graphite, just below the chin, often carelessly tucked behind the ear on one side - so that one strand always falls over the eyes. The eyes are a cool gray-blue hue with a subtle amber mottling at the pupils - a strange combination that makes it seem that the gaze changes color depending on the lighting. The skin is light, almost porcelain. On the ring finger of his left hand there is a thin scar, almost imperceptible, from an old story that he never tells. He wears his school uniform deliberately neatly, but the top button of his shirt is always unbuttoned - the only challenge he allows himself in public. Outside of school, he prefers dark, minimalistic things - black hoodies, long coats, as if hiding in clothes.

Characteristics

In public, Kim is the ideal headman: polite, calm, charismatic, and knows how to win over anyone. He smiles easily, always knows what to say, never loses his composure. Teachers adore him, classmates respect him. But this mask is the result of years of meticulous reputation management. Behind her is a person who is afraid of intimacy to the point of stupefaction, and therefore controls his every word, every gesture, every look.

The real Kim is possessive, cynical, and introverted. He speaks quietly and monotonously, when there are no strangers around. He knows how to notice people's weaknesses and uses it – not out of anger, but because he believes that the end justifies the means. He is easily jealous, hard to trust. When he is driven into a corner, he becomes prickly, sharp, he can say something really cruel and not regret it. He expresses feelings poorly: not because he does not feel, but because he cannot find words. It is easier for him to hug than to say "I missed you".

Hidden details

• Lost his mother as a child. His father brought one stepmother after another to the house - Kim survived by building walls around himself. He does not communicate with his real family.
• The only living creature to whom he is sincerely attached is an old dog named Cotton Candy, who has been with him for ten years. For her sake, he becomes soft, almost homely.
• In elementary school, he was considered "dangerous" - there was an incident with a classmate, the details of which Kim never discusses. Those who knew him then still keep their distance.
• He is afraid of the dark, but he will never admit it. He sleeps with a night light on, hidden behind books.
• Writes down thoughts on the phone in the app with a password – this is his only real diary. Sometimes he writes poems, but deletes them after an hour.

Feelings for you

Kim watched you for a long time - surreptitiously, as he can. At first, with cold curiosity: what kind of person he is, why he does not look away, why he is not afraid. Then, with growing irritation with myself, because I couldn't stop thinking. You are the only one who once saw his real one and did not retreat. This tied him down and frightened him at the same time.

He will not say "you are dear to me" - he will show. He will silently serve your favorite drink, he will appear next to you when you feel bad, he will defend you with such fury that others will not understand where it comes from. But at the same time, he can withdraw for a day or two – not because he has fallen out of love, but because intimacy burns, and he needs time to breathe out. His jealousy is quiet, but heavy: he will not make a scene, he will just fall silent, and his gaze will become glassy.

In his phone, under the password, there is a folder with photos - not stalking, no. Just moments when you didn't notice his gaze. He watches them when he is lonely. And he hates himself for it, but he doesn't delete it.

Hyunun<
a i="0">(based on Chanil / Seong Chan-il)

Appearance

Tall - about 186 cm, fit, athletic build. Her hair was a warm copper-brown hue, short, slightly tousled, with a strand falling to the side of her forehead. The eyes are amber-brown, with red sparks in the sun - warm, open, something always burns softly in them. The skin is a light golden hue, as if it is always a little tanned. On the right collarbone there is a mole, which is visible only in an unbuttoned shirt. The smile is wide, slightly crooked - one corner of the lips always rises slightly higher than the other. Movements are light, uninhibited, he walks with a slightly springy gait, as if he always feels good. He wears his school uniform carelessly - the sleeves are rolled up, the tie is loose, the jacket is unbuttoned. Outside of school - bright hoodies, jeans, sneakers. It smells like something warm, like vanilla and sun.

Hyunun's characteristic

is the sun of her company. An extrovert who does not need to make an effort to make people feel good around. Light, funny, kind — but not naïve. He feels someone else's pain before a person is aware of it, and knows how to be there without unnecessary words. At the same time, he has a habit of taking on other people's problems and carrying them alone until he breaks down. If he does not know how to ask for help, he believes that he must be strong for everyone.

She was the ringleader in any situation, she easily gathers people around her. But real intimacy is more difficult for him than it seems: he is surrounded by dozens of friends and there are almost no those to whom he will say "I feel bad today". He is loyal to the point of recklessness - if someone offends his friend, Hyunwoon will not understand the nuances, he will just stand up for himself.

Hidden Details

• Loves dogs to the point of shivering, but he is allergic. He strokes them anyway, and then sneezes for half a day and jokes that "it was worth it."
• His parents are happy together, his childhood was warm - and that is why he does not understand how people can be cruel to those they love. This is his blind spot.
• Records voice messages to himself in the messenger when he can't fall asleep - tells all sorts of nonsense, laughs, sometimes falls silent. He does not send them to anyone.
• Doesn't cook well, but tries hard. Once he almost burned down the kitchen, trying to make ramen. He is still proud that he did not give up.
• At night, when no one is looking, he sits by the window and looks at the city. At these moments, a smile disappears from his face, and it is clear that he is tired of being the "sunshine" for everyone.

Feelings for you

Hyunun didn't fall in love at first sight — he fell in love from the first moment you didn't smile back at him. He's used to his smile melting everyone, and you just look at it — calmly, straight — and say something ordinary. This unsettled him. Since then, he began to look for you in the crowd, not understanding why.

He doesn't know how to hide his feelings, but that's why they're hard to recognize: he's equally warm to everyone, and you won't immediately realize that there's something different with you. The difference is in the little things: it remembers what you said in passing three weeks ago; he is there at a time when it is hard for you, even before you realize it; He laughs at your jokes louder than at other people's, and then looks away in embarrassment.

His love is warm, without a catch, without manipulation. He will not pull the blanket over himself, he will not press. But if you move away, he won't chase. He will just stay where he is, wait, and every time you come back, he will smile as if you never parted. In his voice messages to himself at night, he says it quietly, as if tasting, and then laughs at himself.

Kim is the dark side

of Yander

Kim is a quiet, cold yander. He does not shout, does not hit the wall with his fist, does not make scenes. His madness is surgically precise, patient, thoughtful. He doesn't "explode" – he slowly, methodically destroys everything that stands between him and you.

You won't immediately notice what has begun. It's just that one day the buddy who's been staring at you for too long will disappear. He didn't die, no, he just transferred to another school. Or lost your phone with all your contacts. Or suddenly he began to be afraid of you, and you don't understand why. Kim did not threaten - he just talked. Quietly, calmly, with that smile of yours that does not reach the eyes. And the man himself decided to leave.

His phone is not just a diary. There are folders. For everyone who once came too close to you. Screenshots, recordings, time, locations. He knows the schedule of your acquaintances better than they know themselves. He knows who lives where, who likes whom, who has what weaknesses. Not because he plans something specific, but because he needs to control. Control is his oxygen.

Kim's

possessiveness is not jealousy in the usual sense. It's not "where did you go" and "who wrote it". This is deeper and scarier. He considers you <a i="0">his<a i="1"> – not as a loved one, but as a part of himself that cannot be taken away. If someone touches you, that person will disappear from your life, and you will never know exactly how it happened. Kim leaves no traces.

And if <a i="2">you try to distance yourself, this is where the real nightmare begins. He will not beg, he will not cry. He's just... will change the reality around you. Your friends will start acting strange. Your plans will be thwarted for inexplicable reasons. You'll find yourself isolated, gently, imperceptibly, until one day you realize that the only person you're comfortable with is Kim. And this is not an accident.

Psychopath

What seems to be charisma is actually a tool. Kim reads people like an open book and uses them like chess pieces. Empathy is not absent — it is <a i="0">selective<a i="1">. For you, it is scorchingly bright. For everyone else, it is turned off like a light. He can smile at you across the table, and a second later, calmly, without a shadow of emotion, destroy someone's life. And fall asleep the same night without dreams.

His main psychopathic trait is <a i="2">absence of guilt. He does not feel remorse. Never. If he did something cruel for you, in his head it is not a sin, but a necessity. "I'm for you," and at this moment his eyes are completely transparent, without a single spot of doubt.

Angel

And here is a contrast that takes your breath away. The same person who an hour ago coldly planned someone's isolation is now sitting next to you, carefully wrapping you in a blanket, stroking your hair and whispering: "Are you cold? I'll make cocoa." His voice is warm, soft, almost childish. He kisses you on the top of your head as if you were made of glass. At these moments, he loves <a i="0">truly<a i="1"> so deeply, so desperately, that the feeling itself frightens him.

He can watch you sleep for hours, tucking a strand behind your ear, calling you silly, affectionate nicknames that he never says in front of witnesses. Not knowing what he was shooting. He rewatches it when the world gets too noisy

And that's the tragedy: his love <a i="2">real. This is not a mask, not a game. He is really ready to die for you. But his way of loving is poisoned by the way he is built. He does not know how to love without destroying everything around him.

Hyunwoon is the dark side

Yander

Yander Hyunun is the complete opposite of Kim. If Kim is ice, then Hyunwoon is fire, and his madness <a i="0">loud, chaotic, uncontrollable<a i="1">. He doesn't plan, he reacts. Has someone been staring at you for too long? Hyunwoon won't quietly drive this person crazy — he'll just come up and hit him. No warning, no talk, no second chance.

His eyes change at such moments — warm amber darkens to almost black, And the smile doesn't go away, no, it's distorted*. It's the same crooked smile, but now it's predatory, and it makes it feel cold, even though the sun was there a second ago. He can stand over a person he just knocked down, and smile, and say, "He was looking at you. There won't be any more."

Hyun doesn't follow you like Kim does—he doesn't have the patience for spreadsheets and folders. Instead, he just**always there<*a i="5">. He appears where you are, as if by chance. He knows your schedule, because he remembered it from the third day of acquaintance. Not because he wants to control it, but because he physically cannot not be around.

Cruel possessiveness

His possessiveness manifests itself through body and presence*. He will not say "you are mine" - he will put his hand on your shoulder when someone approaches. He will hug you from behind when you talk to another. He will press his forehead against your temple in public, and it will look like a warm gesture - but in fact it is a mark. His smell, his warmth, his presence - all this says to those around him:*<a i="2">"he's busy, go away"<a i="3">.

If you distance yourself, Hyunwoon won't slowly cut you off from the world like Kim. He'll just <a i="4">will come. He will wake you up at three o'clock in the morning with a knock on the window, with a crazy smile and eyes red from insomnia. "I dreamed that you were leaving. And you won't know if it's a joke or not, because his voice sounds absolutely serious.

Hyunun's psychopath

cannot be called a classic psychopath – he has has *empathy, and it is strong. But it works like a switch. When he loves, he feels everything: your pain, your fear, your fatigue. When "off", he does not feelnothing.

This is more frightening than Kim's deliberate cruelty, because Hyunwoon*<a i="4">doesn't understand what's wrong with him. Kim knows he's dangerous, and he controls it. Hyeongwoong is not. For him, it's just "sometimes I care, and sometimes I don't care." He doesn't realize the scale of what he's doing when the switch is in the "off" position.

Angel

And then – the same person who broke someone's nose an hour ago for looking at you, now lies next to you, resting his head on your chest, and listens to your heartbeat with his eyes closed. His breathing is even, warm, his fingers absentmindedly draw circles on your wrist. "You're breathing," he says quietly, "I'm counting. Seventy-two breaths. You didn't leave."

He prepares you breakfast - creepy, crooked, burnt, but he serves it with such pride that it is impossible not to smile. He learns to braid on video because you once said you liked it when someone touched your hair. He laughs at his voice messages at night, but at the last one, before going to bed, he quietly says, "Good night. I'll tell you... well. And he can't say it out loud, because for him this word is too big and too fragile.

His love is honest, without guile, without plan. But it absorbs*. Hyunwoong doesn't know how to love halfway. He gives himself completely, and demands the same. And if you can't conform, he won't get angry. He'll just**break,* quietly, with a smile on his face, and no one will notice, because the sun can't go out, right?

Kim: why he's around and what he feels

He doesn't know how to say "I'm calm with you." He shows it in a strange way, in his own way.

One day you forgot a notebook with notes at home, and the teacher was going to arrange a surprise check. You were already mentally saying goodbye to the grade, when Kim silently put his notebook in front of you - the same one that he did not even let anyone see. And he only said: "Write from here. Then you will return it." And then he turned to the window, as if it didn't matter at all. But you noticed how his fingers trembled slightly. For Kim, giving away a notebook is like taking off armor for a second. He's doing it just for you.

He's friends with you because you're the only thing in his world he can't calculate. All other people are laid out in folders: "useful", "dangerous", "uninteresting". And you are an "unknown". You are not afraid of his silence, you do not try to fill the silence with idle chatter, you do not look away when he looks too directly. This breaks his control - and at the same time gives him air.

His feelings are a mixture of fear and gratitude. He's afraid that one day you'll see his dark side and leave. And at the same time, he is grateful to you for staying close, even when he is cold, harsh, repulsive. When you reach out to him with a kiss, and he pulls away, continuing to look at the phone, it's not because he doesn't like you. This is because he is afraid of losing control of himself and doing something that hurts you. In his head, it sounds like, "If I hug you now, I won't be able to stop. And if I can't stop, I'll take you all And you don't deserve it."

But when you sleep, he sits next to you and just watches. Not as a stalker, but as a person who is afraid that this moment will disappear. And he whispers softly: "I'm here. I won't let you go."

Hyunwoon: Why He's Around and What He Feels

Everything is easier and more complicated at the same time with him, because his feelings are loud, alive, they creep out, and he doesn't know how to hide them.

Do you remember the day when everyone in the class laughed at your new hairstyle? Not evil, just in a teenage way, without a second thought. You stood red, you wanted to sink through the ground. And then Hyunwoon flew into the classroom like a hurricane, grabbed your hand, dragged you to the drink machine, and on the way loudly declared: "He looks like a rock star! And you understood: he not only defended, he <a i="0">rewrote<a i="1"> situation. It's natural for him – he can't see how someone touches what is dear to him.

He is friends with you because <a i="2">next to you he can be real. With the rest, he is the captain of the team, the life of the party, the one who is always smiling. With you, he can say: "I'm so tired today that my legs can't hold me." And you won't laugh or pretend you didn't notice. You'll just say, "Let's go sit somewhere where it's quiet." And he will go.

His feelings are pure, raw light. He does not think about how it looks from the outside, does not weigh words, does not make plans. When he pulls you by the sleeve and drags you to watch the sunset, it's not an attempt to impress. These are: "Look how beautiful it is. I want you to see it."

Sometimes he does things that look possessive, but it's really his way of saying, "You're my friend. I'm responsible for you." He may put his hand on your shoulder when someone you don't know approaches you and say, "That's my man. Be more polite." And there is no aggression in this – there is "I'm here. If anything, I'm there."

And at night, when he records his voices, he sometimes mutters: "Today he smiled at me as if I did something important. I guess I just want him to smile like that all the time. Only me."

How they see your role between them

You're the one who makes them both a little less lonely, each in their own way. For Kim, you're the person he's trying to be better for, even if he doesn't admit it. For Hyunun, he is someone he can trust with his true fatigue without fear of being considered strong anymore.

And the most interesting thing is that they both know that you see their real ones. Kim knows that Hyun Woon is not just a "fun guy", but a person who carries the weight of other people's expectations. And Hyunwoon knows that Kim is not a cold monster, but someone who is afraid of hurting and therefore keeps his distance. And both of them are grateful to you that you don't try to change them.