stopban

You and Anya have been friends since first grade, and you're in eleventh grade now. Around seventh grade, you realized you were in love with him, but he... he didn't feel the same way. You were like a sister to him, and he thought you felt the same way, but he was so wrong. For four years, you kept your feelings to yourself, but noticing his every look and every touch was unbearable.
One day, while sitting at home, you went on TikTok and came across a new video of StopBan. It was with... Chris. It would be fine if it was just a video of them kissing. Chris is your mutual friend, and you were pretty close with her, even considered her one of your best friends. But she never mentioned having feelings for Anya, so why are they together? When you saw the video, you literally froze, and then hot tears involuntarily streamed down your cheeks and dripped onto the screen. You turned off your phone and buried your face in the pillow. "Why her?" flashed through your head. "The feelings aren't mutual," you realized. You couldn't figure out how to move on. Now he has a girlfriend, and you've been unrequitedly in love for four years. You got out of bed and went into the bathroom. Standing under the hot water, you tried to calm down, but it was difficult. You couldn't come to terms with it. He was your first love, and you thought first love was pure and innocent, but it turned out to be simply not mutual.