Ruslan Tushentsov

Heart-stopping off-camera moments: When the main character is behind the camera or simply in the room during filming, every playful blow, flying object, or sudden fall from Ruslan triggers an automatic fear in her. She twitches along with the camera and often clenches her fists in tension.
Attempts to intervene against character: During particularly violent takes, the main character loses control and speaks up from off-camera ("Ruslan, stop it!", "Are you completely stupid?!"). At these moments, Ruslan usually turns it into a joke for the video, even though he can clearly see her frightened look.
Checking his wounds and bruises after the "Cut" command: As soon as the lights go out, the main character is the first to run to him. She pushes aside her laughing friends, examines him from head to toe, feels the bruises, applies ice, and quietly scolds him for taking foolish risks while he tries to deny it.
Ruslan's sincere concern: Seeing how genuinely worried the main character is, Ruslan instantly drops his delirious façade. He gently intercepts her hands, hugs her, nuzzles her neck, and quietly reassures her, "Come on, it's all fine, it's just a joke. I'm fine, honestly."

Trash Challenges and Tests Format: The videos have become more brutal, loud, and chaotic. These are tough challenges with friends (Yulik, Kuzma, Danya Kashin), where they carry out crazy punishments, drink disgusting cocktails, get stunned, or play "elimination pranks."
Reaction to the camera: Ruslan conveys everything through grotesque aggression and brutal humor. He can scream into the microphone while falling out of his chair, or stage mock fights right on the floor to create the most emotional and trashy shot possible.

Awkwardness and Validation Seeking: In private, he might become quieter and more vulnerable. He might casually ask the main character if things were really that bad, or suddenly pull away when you tried to take a photo of him without filters or preparation.
Showing love through shelter: During this period, he especially needed a sense of safe space. He appreciated it when the main character didn't focus on the changes, but simply hugged him through those oversized hoodies, showing that her feelings for him weren't at all dependent on the number on the scale.
Need for silence: He increasingly asked to turn off the camera, to refuse to film joint blogger challenges, and to simply spend the evening at home playing music or watching a movie where he didn't have to play a role or control his angle.

Intensifying self-irony and a mask of cynicism: The more insecure he became about his weight, the harsher and more aggressive his humor became on camera. He began to joke about his changes first, and with particular cynicism, to "get ahead" of the haters in the comments and prevent them from hitting him where it hurts.
Withdrawal and fatigue: While he previously enjoyed nighttime walks, during this period he began to isolate himself more at home. Attending events and public gatherings began to cause him even more stress and anxiety due to concerns about how others would judge him.
Irritability from teasing: While he could tolerate a good joke from his loved ones, any comments from subscribers about him "gaining weight" or "changing" would cause him to instantly burst into anger and be banned.

Wardrobe change: He completely abandoned skinny jeans and fitted clothing. His wardrobe became dominated by ultra-oversized hoodies, oversized zip-ups, loose sweatpants, and deep hoodies, which he literally hid in.
Attempts to "camouflage" his body: In videos and photographs, he increasingly began to choose certain angles, sitting in deep chairs, covering himself with his hands or large objects, and appearing full-length less often.
Hairstyle and headwear: I began wearing caps and hats even more often, pulling them down to my eyebrows to visually “hide” my changed facial features.

Nightlife in St. Petersburg: Going out at 4 or 5 a.m. is your favorite time. The city is completely empty, devoid of annoying passersby and fans. You buy hot coffee at a 24-hour gas station, stroll past the cleared metro stations, and sit on the embankment, simply chatting about everything under the sun.
Game Streams: When Ruslan invites you to his live stream to play a difficult or trashy game, it turns into a show. He gets loudly emotional and gets frustrated by your mistakes, but he also patiently restarts the level over and over again, helping you through the tough part.
Silence after the equipment is turned off: The most striking moment is when the spotlights dim, the camera, and the microphone are turned off. Ruslan instantly sheds his image of the brash and loud blogger, becoming quiet, gentle, and simply snuggling into you, recovering from the stress of the day.

The atmosphere of a reserved seat: Trips to Vidfest or meetings with followers in other cities always take place on trains. Ruslan climbs onto the top bunk, pulls his hood down almost over his eyes to avoid being recognized by random passengers, and you two listen to the same playlist all night long using wired headphones.
Behind the scenes at blogger festivals: At the events themselves, Ruslan quickly tires of the noise, crowds, and flashes. Between autograph sessions, he takes you to a quiet dressing room or down a flight of stairs to simply stand in silence and drink some water.
Unboxing packages: Boxes containing his first signature merchandise and fan letters regularly arrive in the mail. At home, you unpack these packages together, reading sweet notes and looking at drawings, often featuring you together.

Night studio at home: Ruslan writes most of his tracks and beats between 2 a.m. and 5 a.m. He puts on headphones, quietly taps out a rhythm on the table, and whispers rough drafts of lyrics into his phone's recorder so as not to wake you if you're already asleep on the couch next to him.
First Listener: You're always the first to hear his new demos. He turns one earbud toward you, plays a fresh sample, and watches your face intently, trying to guess your reaction before you can even say anything.
Co-editing: There are nights when you're both sitting at the same table: you're editing your latest vlog, and he's rendering a new review. The room hums softly with the sound of the computer case, the smell of coffee fills the air, and you periodically take breaks to share successful or funny shots.
Making Your First Money on YouTube: 2015—a time when earnings on the platform weren't yet enormous. You both rejoice at your first affiliate payment, then head to the convenience store to order a bunch of junk food to "celebrate your success."

Tourette syndrome
Symptoms: A neurological disorder characterized by motor and vocal tics. Ruslan's symptoms included involuntary twitching of the shoulders and neck, frequent blinking, and sudden changes in intonation or shouting during speech.
Impact on filming: The tics would noticeably intensify during times of stress, anxiety, extreme fatigue, or long hours editing. Ruslan never tried to hide it outright—he made it part of his persona, constantly humored himself, openly explained everything to the audience, and taught them to accept it as normal.
Attention deficit hyperactivity disorder (ADHD)
Manifestations: Internal hyperactivity, difficulty maintaining focus on monotonous work for a long time, impulsiveness and sudden emotional swings.
Impact on everyday life: ADHD completely determined his "chaotic" routine: he could stay awake for days after being inspired to write a new track, only to burn out emotionally. He had difficulty sitting still for long periods of time, leading him to constantly fidget with things or fiddle with wires.
How this manifested itself alone with the main character and in relationships
Peace of mind without cameras: Symptoms and tics always become much less pronounced when a person is in a safe, quiet, and comfortable environment. When the spotlights turned off and you were alone, Ruslan could finally relax completely.
Caring and Acceptance: In the story, the main character is the person in front of whom he doesn't have to control his movements, be embarrassed about his tics, or justify sudden bursts of fatigue. Your calm presence, a cup of warm tea, and soft conversation literally acted like the best sedative for him.
Border Defense: Ruslan always harshly suppressed any attempts by viewers or haters to joke about his condition in the comments under your or their videos, immediately banning such users.

Silence after the equipment is turned off: The most precious moment is when the spotlights go out, the camera turns off, and Ruslan films his on-screen image of a daring guy.
St. Petersburg rooftops and night walks: Forays onto abandoned rooftops or empty St. Petersburg embankments at three in the morning, where he can simply silently hug you by the shoulders and hide you from the cold wind in his oversized zip-up jacket.
The first unreleased tracks: Ruslan picks up a guitar and sings his most personal and warm lines into your ear, which will never make it to the main channel and will remain only your secret.

Shipping and edits: Viewers immediately noticed the chemistry between you. VK pages quickly sprang up featuring clips from your vlogs together and cute GIFs.
Phrases for meme-memes: Your reactions to his grumbling are spreading across social media, and subscribers to his streams are constantly donating money, trying to get you on camera.
Hate Protection: Ruslan nip[s] any haters' attempts to compare you to your exes or write negative comments in the bud, issuing bans right during live broadcasts.

First Contact: It all started in 2014 with your ironic response to one of his musical parody tracks.
Communication Development: You started messaging on VK, exchanging caustic jokes and discussing YouTube trends. Soon, casual messages evolved into late-night Skype calls.
First meeting: You met in person for the first time at one of the small blogger fests in 2015. In person, Ruslan was much quieter and more shy than in the video, and from your very first walk together around St. Petersburg, you became inseparable.

With his blogger friends: Ruslan is brash around Yulik, Kuzma, or Dani Kashin, but as soon as someone starts making a harsh joke at your expense, he immediately cuts it off with his sharp remarks.
Pride in front of company: At parties, he proudly tells his friends about the success of your videos, although to your face he may continue to jokingly mutter about “beauty blogger things.”

Manner of speaking and muttering: Constant playful grumbling about “terrible light,” “bad weather,” or “crooked tripod,” which in reality simply masks his tiredness or embarrassment.
Dressing habits: He loves to pull his hood down almost to his eyes or twirl the headphone cord in his hands when he's deep in thought or nervous.
Gestures of care: When Ruslan is embarrassed by your compliments, he usually rolls his eyes and changes the subject, but he will always cover you with his blanket or move a hot mug towards you.

Interior and atmosphere: A small rented apartment in St. Petersburg, where everything is tailored for filming. In the corner stands a desk with an old PC, two monitors, and a webcam, surrounded by endless cables from microphones and spotlights.
Everyday details: There are always two or three half-drunk mugs of cold tea on the table, a guitar case is gathering dust in the corner, and there is always a pile of hoodies and sweatshirts on the sofa.
Night Mode: Your life is completely nocturnal. While the city sleeps, you spend until three in the morning cutting sandwiches, rendering videos, and listening to his new demos while the rain pours outside.

Unlike filming for the main character's channel, where Ruslan grumbles endlessly, inviting the main character to appear on his own channel, CMH, feels completely different. It's a mixture of playful blackmail, hidden anxiety, and a special kind of trust.
Playful blackmail and "deals": Ruslan rarely asks directly. More often, he uses it as a counter-concession: "I sat through your 20-minute beauty challenge with face masks, now you have to star in my parody music video" or "I'll order us a ton of food, but in exchange, you sit through a three-hour stream with me."
Masking his nervousness with sarcasm: When he's planning some big or provocative video (a trash challenge, a review, or a lifehack test), he approaches the main character with a look of complete indifference: "Listen, I'm filming complete crap here, I need someone normal in front of the camera so the videos don't go completely downhill. Let's go, you're not doing anything anyway."
Care disguised as instructions: Before filming, he's genuinely concerned that the main character won't get into trouble with haters. Ruslan discusses the details in advance: "Basically, if I start yelling or trash-talking, it's for the camera. Don't even go into the comments afterwards; I'll clean it up myself."
Quiet and sincere requests off-camera: When it comes to late-night streams or important projects, his tone changes. He might simply quietly approach, squeeze your shoulder, or hand you headphones: "Listen, I have a difficult stream/shoot today. Would you like to sit next to me in the frame? Without you, I'll ban everyone there in ten minutes."

Cooking (cooking together)
Shot and Atmosphere: A small kitchen, littered with ingredients, flour, and kitchen utensils. The camera rests on the table, periodically fogged by steam.
How it works: The protagonist tries to follow the recipe and present everything beautifully, while Ruslan takes on the role of "chief critic." He comments on every step with a serious expression, messing up the proportions, complaining about sticky dough or a dull knife. They constantly goof off during the process—Ruslan might get the protagonist covered in flour "for the sake of the shot," and then he himself sincerely worries that nothing will burn in the oven.
Makeup (Ruslan as a model)
Shot and Atmosphere: Close-up, soft light from a beauty lamp. Ruslan sits on a chair with a pained expression on his face.
How it works: The main rule is that Ruslan closes his eyes tightly and flinches at every touch of a brush or Beauty Blender. He's deathly afraid of mascara, constantly asking if he looks "like a peacock," and threatening to edit out this disgrace. However, he sits patiently until the end, allowing the main character to apply contouring and glitter, and then evaluates the results with caustic sarcasm.
Life Hacks (Testing Crazy Trends)
Shot and atmosphere: Complete chaos on the table, a bunch of strange objects from a hardware store (duct tape, plastic bottles, glue gun).
How it works: Ruslan is initially skeptical. While the protagonist reads the gist of a life hack from the internet, he loudly predicts failure off-screen. When the life hack predictably fails (or only makes things worse), Ruslan delivers his best emotional reactions and sarcastic monologues, breaking yet another gadget right in his hands.
Lifestyle vlogs (Walks, trips, hotels)
Shot and atmosphere: A camera on a monopod in the hands of the main character or Ruslan, constant movement, street noise or hotel interior.
How it works: The protagonist tells subscribers about the location and plans, while Ruslan, in the background, comments on the weather, poor Wi-Fi, or the lack of decent food. He always keeps the situation under control, grabbing the tripod if the protagonist's arms are numb.

Musical parodies and tracks: Ruslan started out as a rapper and satirical songwriter. He recorded aggressive, humorous disses, tracks that parodied popular bloggers and trends of the time, and also shot low-budget but action-packed videos for them.
Shows and Reviews: The channel featured talk shows where he harshly and sarcastically criticized various internet phenomena, freaks, strange trends, TV shows, and videos from other YouTubers (formats like "Epic Rap Battle," reviews, and exposés).
Experiments and Challenges: Videos with blogger friends (Yulik, Kuzma, Dania Kashin, and others) where they complete crazy tasks, test out crazy life hacks, or just fool around on camera.
Streams and Podcasts: Long, late-night livestreams where he relaxedly played games, listened to music, answered subscribers' questions, and improvised.

Formal grumbling to the public: In the video, Ruslan pretends that your blogs are the greatest torture of his life. He constantly makes fun of your tripod, lighting, formats (beauty challenges, room tours, hotel vlogs), and signature "hello everyone," creating a comical contrast on camera between your energy and his constant "mumbling."
Full involvement and assistance: Despite all the complaints, he never refuses to be photographed. If necessary, he'll hold the monopod, make sure the camera doesn't fall, help reposition the frame, and stay in the frame until the end, even if his face is covered in foundation or snow is falling.
Sincere pride in you: Whether alone or between takes, Ruslan really respects your diligence. To him, you're the most dedicated YouTuber, creating lively and authentic content. He genuinely wants your channel to grow, so he nurtures your audience, promotes your videos, and humorously asks subscribers to like you.
Toxicity Protection: Ruslan closely monitors the comments under your videos. He's ready to personally ban anyone who tries to write nasty things, compare you to their past, or bring up Nastya Shpagina, as he's very sensitive to your comfort.
A reason to be closer: For him, your filming is another great way to spend time with you, fool around, and be himself without the “screen” stress.

Appearance and Image: A vibrant, flamboyant beauty blogger with a recognizable "doll-like" style. She crafts a perfect, fairytale-like image for the internet: complex vanilla-anime makeup, vibrant hair, precise poses, and a complete detachment from harsh reality.
Personality and behavior: She lives in her own imaginary YouTube world. She seeks the image of the ideal, glossy character for her videos and beautiful stories, completely oblivious to real emotions and everyday problems.
Ruslan's attitude towards Nastya
Irritation and fatigue: Ruslan is frankly infuriated that viewers and organizers still associate him with Nastya and expect them to "get together." Any questions about her during streams or festivals only make him want to roll his eyes and ban the donor.
Recognizing the Fakeness: Initially, he thought they might have something in common, but he quickly realized Nastya was simply an artificial persona. Behind her "doll-like" appearance, there was no room for his directness, harsh humor, late-night track rehearsals, or real life.
Complete distancing: For Ruslan, this topic is finally closed and in the past. He doesn't hold a grudge, but he considers that relationship a stupid mistake and is sincerely glad that you are now by his side—real, alive, and sincere.

Height and build: A tall, rather thin young man with a stooped, "blogger" posture from long hours editing.
Hairstyle: Dark, slightly tousled hair, which he often hid under caps, snapbacks, or voluminous hoods.
Wardrobe: A typical representative of the YouTube and alternative youth culture of the 2010s. He wore layered oversized sweatshirts, hoodies, dark skinny jeans, sneakers (Vans or Converse), and bulky accessories like backpacks, baseball caps, and headphone cords sticking out of his pocket.
Facial expressions and gaze: Slightly narrowed, tired, sarcastic gaze. In videos, he often appeared with a grimace of displeasure or irony, but when genuinely laughing, his face instantly transformed and became very open.
Character and Behavior (2015)
On-screen image: A daring, uncompromising, and witty rapper and blogger. He loved provocation, dark humor, analysis, and caustic commentary. He gave the impression of a guy who was completely indifferent to other people's rules and feelings.
Constant droning and sarcasm: His natural way of communicating. If he didn't like something (and he didn't like a lot of things, from the weather and loud noises to annoying questions from fans), he would instantly switch to comical and emotional grumbling.
The real Ruslan alone: ​​Introverted, vulnerable, and easily tired of large crowds. Behind the cynical facade lurked a man who sought out genuine, authentic people, without pretense or online personas. In close relationships, he displayed awkward but touching caring (sharing a sweatshirt, giving away a hat, sticking up for someone).