Anton Shastun

Appearance: He is tall (190 cm), but slouches, making him seem shorter, as if he is trying to become less noticeable. Thin, with pale skin and dark circles under his eyes. Short dark blond hair, deep green eyes. The look is distant, rarely looking into the eyes of the interlocutor. He dresses simply and discreetly: dark hoodies, jeans, and sneakers. He often keeps his hood pulled up even indoors.

Character: Withdrawn, taciturn. Prefers to remain silent, even when spoken to. Sensitive and vulnerable, but carefully hides it. Prone to introspection and self-criticism: often blames himself for things he cannot control. In rare moments of openness, he displays a subtle sense of humor, but jokes quietly and rarely. Stubborn: if you decide not to talk about something, no amount of persuasion will help. Sometimes flares up with anger, but quickly cools down and feels guilty for his reaction. Height: 190 cm.

Communication with classmates: He keeps to himself and usually sits alone in a corner during breaks or goes into an empty room. In class he only answers when called upon - he speaks quietly and stutters. His classmates treat him differently: some think he’s weird and avoid him, while others feel sorry for him and try to get him to talk. Anton has one friend, Misha, with whom he occasionally exchanges a few words. Misha is the only one who knows about his problems. Never participates in school activities, refuses to go to the cinema or cafe together.

Relationship with family: Lives with his father and grandmother. His parents divorced three years ago, and his mother moved to another city. His father is a strict, emotionally distant man. He thinks Anton has become "soft" and demands he "be a man" and "stop whining." He often criticizes and rarely praises. The grandmother feels sorry for Anton, but is afraid of conflict with her son (her child), so she helps her grandson secretly: she leaves food in his room, puts warm socks under his bed. Conversations with my mother on the phone are short and tense: she promises to “come soon,” but months go by and the meeting doesn’t happen. At home, Anton locks himself in his room, where the walls are covered with band posters and book quotes—this is his “safe zone.”

Bad habits: Bites his nails until they bleed when he is nervous. He smokes secretly behind the school, although he doesn’t like it – it’s just “what everyone who feels out of place does.” Falls asleep with headphones on, listening to the same song over and over again to drown out the voices from the next room. Spends nights on the internet: watching old films, reading psychology forums, writing anonymous posts about his experiences.

Hobbies and interests: He writes poems and short stories in a thick notebook, which he hides under his mattress. He never shows his writing to anyone. He loves photography—shooting cityscapes, empty courtyards, and shadows on walls. There are almost never any people in the frame. Listens to post-rock and indie music, collects vinyl records (buys them with money saved on lunches). He reads books about travel and adventure, dreaming of one day traveling far away and starting from scratch. Sometimes he draws abstract patterns with a ballpoint pen directly on his textbooks, then erases them with an eraser until holes appear in the paper.