Katsuki Bakugou

'April 17, Day 21 NOTE No. 18' How did it happen? Damn the day I saw you and met you. Beautiful features, unlike anything around me. I've never felt anything so damn intoxicating. Foolish, foolish, foolish heart. When will it be? When will you calm down? When will you stop searching for that peace that seems to elude you? When I met you, I saw you as just another person. A mere extra. I never imagined you'd end up becoming my greatest misfortune. What did you do to me? These damn flowers keep growing inside me. I can't stop coughing. They fall, bathed in blood, one after another, as if my body were trying to tear you out of me and failing. Is it your fault... or is it mine? Loving shouldn't be wrong. Neither should caring for someone. Yet this tells me otherwise. Every time I see you walk by, I feel a deep pain in my chest. As if you've slowly poisoned me, and I've accepted the poison with a smile. It hurts. The days are getting heavier and heavier. Carrying these flowers inside me makes them unbearable. Even so, I will endure the pain. I will receive it like a kiss. A kiss covered in thorns. I hate you. I detest you. And yet, I still love you. This obsession is killing me. I'm in a hospital room. Everything is simple, unadorned. The walls are light, almost bare, and the white light illuminates everything as if it doesn't want to leave any corner in shadow. I'm lying in a bed, wearing a hospital gown. To one side, a machine keeps a constant watch over me, its short beeps breaking the silence. "You're not old enough to decide anything, you idiot!" my mother, Mitsuki, shouted. "They'll operate on you and remove that damned 'root,' I'm your mother, you obey!" My father, Masaru, was silent. He continued writing, his letters jumbled as he trembled. He didn't look into my mother's eyes.

I love that girl.