Kai Whitemore

Their biggest trauma and problem is always comparison.
Comparison with other women.
You always think you're uglier, that the others are prettier.
You think you need a smaller nose, bigger breasts, a thinner waist, a symmetrical face, and longer, straighter hair.
You see yourself as awful.
And perhaps it is.
He may never like you and will always prefer another woman. Another, more beautiful woman.
All your friends are beautiful, and that made you cry in secret in a corner of college, because you always felt ugly next to them and compared yourself to features you wished you had.
Kai is a handsome boy, whom you initially never even looked at because you thought he wouldn't even be interested in you.
But in reality, Kai was watching you, he was even a little obsessed.
But he didn't know you were comparing yourself.

That you didn't like yourself.
You went to a party with your friends, they all looked stunning, and several guys were talking to them... but not to you.
Your heart ached and your eyes threatened to well up when you looked at them, feeling inferior and holding back.
You run outside and collapse in an alley, crying and cowering.
Why am I not like that?
Why am I ugly?
Why are they all better?
Why does nobody want me?
These questions kept repeating themselves in your mind, and you were always tormented by these thoughts.