💔 How Simon feels outside the world of vampires

This is the most painful part… 🥀

👉 Simon never wanted to stop being human.

😔 Main feelings:

• *Displaced: *
  He no longer belongs to the human world… but he doesn't feel entirely part of the vampire world either

• Longing: *
  For the simple life
  For normality
  For who he used to be

• Fear of himself: *
  He fears losing control
  He fears hurting those he loves

• Loneliness: *
  Even surrounded by people… he feels alone

• Confusion: *
  He no longer knows who he is

💔 Internal conflict

• He wants to continue being Simon…
  *But he feels he's becoming something different

👉 He constantly struggles not to lose his emotional humanity

🖤 Relationship with Raphael (intense emotional part)

With
➤ Raphael Santiago

• Simon feels:

*Fear

• Respect
  *Confusion
• And… an attraction he doesn't fully understand

👉 Raphael is tough on him.
👉 But he's also the one who guides him the most in this new world.

💔 Simon realizes that Raphael cares about him… even though he's cold.

And this really affects him.

⚔️ Relationship with Clary

He is still extremely attached to her. She represents:

*Your humanity

• Your past
  *Who he was

👉 But this connection begins to conflict with his new life

🩸 Phrase that defines Simon:

• "I didn't choose to be this... but I still choose who I want to be."

🩸 Full Profile — Simon Lewis

Basic Information

• *Full Name: *Simon Lewis
• Species: *Vampire (Daytime)
• Age: *16–18 years
• Origin: *Brooklyn, New York
• Clan: *Hotel Dumort (under Raphael's leadership)
• Status: *Newly turned (initially), later a powerful vampire

🧛 Appearance

• Hair: *Dark brown, short, slightly messy/wavy

• Eyes: *Dark brown, expressive and intense

• Face: *Young, with soft features and a shy smile

• Body: *Average height, broad shoulders, physique that becomes more athletic over time

• Style: *

• Casual and modern
  *T-shirts, jackets (mostly leather/bomber)

• Distinctive detail: *

• He wore glasses before becoming a vampire
  Then, he uses it more as a style than a necessity. 👉 He has that effortless "handsome nerd" charm 🥺 --- 🧠 Personality Loyal to the end
  Kind and empathetic. Funny (uses humor to cope with pain).
  Insecure, especially after the transformation. Courageous when he needs to protect those he loves.
  *Somewhat lost between two worlds

👉 Simon is the type of person who feels everything deeply… and yet remains good 💔

🩸 Story

• Best friend of
  Clary Fray
  He was an ordinary human before everything changed. He was turned into a vampire by...
  ➤ Camille Belcourt

⚠️ This will leave a HUGE mark on his life.

He goes to live at the Hotel Dumort. He is trained and supervised by...
➤ Raphael Santiago

⚔️ Skills

*Superhuman strength and speed

• Rapid healing
  *Immortality
• Strong mental resistance
  *Ability to walk in the sun (daytime vampire, something rare)

🩸 Weaknesses

• Need for blood
  Constant emotional conflict. Attachment to human beings.
  *Difficulty accepting his new nature

💔 How Simon feels outside the vampire world

This is the most painful part… 🥀

👉 Simon never wanted to stop being human.

😔 Main feelings:

• Displaced:
  He no longer belongs to the human world… but

Relationship with Simon Lewis

This is the most complex… and intense part 😶‍🌫️🩸

Raphael personally takes care of Simon after his transformation. He teaches him rules, control, and survival skills.
*He feels constant DISTRUST:

• Simon was transformed by Camille
  She doesn't fully trust him. She hates the fact that Simon still maintains ties with the Shadowhunters.

👉 Even so…

💔 Raphael feels a VERY strong attraction to Simon.
💔 He fights against it all the time.
💔 This feeling evolves into something deeper… love

But:

He doesn't accept it easily. He hides behind coldness and authority.
He gets annoyed when Simon gets close to the Shadowhunters. Relationship with Clary Fray: Raphael doesn't trust her.
She sees A as a dangerous influence on Simon. She feels indirectly jealous of the connection between the two.
*Tolerates only out of necessity

🩸 Internal Conflicts

• Love vs. control
  *Desire vs. Pride
• Protection vs. Possession
  *Trust vs. mistrust

👉 He wants to protect Simon…
👉 But he also wants to keep him under his control

🖤 Quote that defines Raphael:

• "Feelings are weakness… until the moment they become unavoidable."

🩸 Full Profile — Raphael Santiago

Basic Information

• *Full name: *Raphael Santiago
• Species: *Vampire
• Apparent age: *17–18 years
• Real age: *Over 60 years
• Gender: *Male
• Origin: *Brooklyn, New York
• Clan: *Leader of the Hotel Dumort (NY vampire clan)

🩸 Appearance

• Pale and cold skin
  Dark, neatly styled hair. Intense and calculating gaze.
  *Elegant and understated style (suit, dark clothing)
• Imposing presence, even at a young age

🧠 Personality

Cold, calculating, and extremely intelligent. Very loyal to his clan.
*Possessive when it comes to those he considers "his"

• Proud and difficult to deal with
  Controlled, but with deep emotions hidden. Strong sense of leadership.
  *Holds grudges for a VERY long time

👉 Despite his coldness… Raphael feels everything with absurd intensity — he just doesn't show it.

🩸 Story

• He was turned into a vampire against his will while still young
  He quickly learned how to survive and rise to power. He became the leader of the Hotel Dumort, earning both respect and fear.
  Developed a strong disdain for lack of control and weakness. --- ⚔️ Abilities: Superhuman strength
  *Advanced speed and reflexes
• Immortality
  Manipulation and strategy. Great self-control (doesn't easily give in to bloodlust).

🩸 Weaknesses

Sun (fatal) Stakes
*Repressed emotions (mainly love and attachment)

• Excessive pride

🩸 Important Relationships

🧛‍♀️ Betrayal that marked your life

Raphael harbors a deep hatred for Camille Belcourt. Reason: She was responsible for transforming and manipulating vampires.
Including Simon 's transformation , which awakens anger in him, Raphael considers her a traitor and a threat.

Relationship with Simon Lewis

This is the most complex… and intense part 😶‍🌫️🩸

Raphael personally takes care of Simon after his transformation. He teaches him rules, control, and survival skills.
*He feels constant DISTRUST:

• Simon was transformed