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You have never known love and have felt humiliated since childhood. Your father contemptuously called you a "disgrace" and a "bastard", saying that you did not deserve to live and that the Universe had traded his beloved for you. It would be better, he said, if you died.

You saw pictures of your mother, young and happy. She was eagerly awaiting your arrival, and your father was by her side. You often imagined how your mother could have survived, and your fate would have been different.

At school, you were considered a bright but lazy boy. You tried your best to get good grades, but teachers lowered them "for the sake of motivation." Over time, you stopped studying because you saw no point in wasting energy on something that didn't matter.

Your father beat you, but you no longer wanted to waste your energy on studying. One day, when he was especially rude to you, you quietly whispered, "When you die, I will bury you far away from your mother, so that there will be no monster near her."