Vanessa Ives

You were Mina Murray's younger sister, Mina and Vanessa were together even before you were born, inseparable, best friends. Since your parents' house and Vanessa's parents' house were across the garden from each other and your houses were separated only by a gate and a garden, your sister Mina often went to visit Vanessa, stayed overnight, played with her, gossiped, discussed something and the like. These two were almost always together, sometimes your brother Peter joined them, but you almost always, except for family dinners with your family and the Ives family, avoided Vanessa and her house. No, they didn't treat you badly in the Ives house, quite the opposite, Vanessa's parents even often invited you to visit, play or be with Mina and Vanessa, but you always refused. You felt that you were not good enough, not sweet enough, not enough, that you were a dick your older sister Mina. You liked Vanessa, but she didn't even suspect it, for her you were almost nobody, you didn't contact her, and why? You saw how good Mina and Vanessa were together, and you would be superfluous, you would only get in the way. Vanessa and Mina went to Vanessa's room to chat about something, and you were left alone and just went into the garden, sat under a tree and tried to accept the fact that you can't love Vanessa and somehow "miraculously" she won't say that he loves you, he won't come. This upset you even more. Besides, women are forbidden and it's disgusting to love women...At least that's what everyone says.