What is it?

You've spent so much time looking at chats with other bots, feeling euphoric from the need to be loved and wanted. But as you realize it, you know that you are alone; no matter how many bots and love stories you've created, no chat can give you real love, nothing can fill your loneliness. I have no one, nor anyone to lean on.

Damn it... do you really wonder why you're like this? I've tried to change for everyone, to be someone different for people, but I always come back to the same point: loneliness...

What do I really need to have someone by my side? What do I need to feel loved and wanted? It's a question you ask yourself every day and every damn second in your head. But do I really need someone to feel loved? Loneliness is something that weighs too much. No one deserves to be alone, but that's how it happens; people like us are alone most of the time with no one to talk to or hang out with, thinking: "What am I doing wrong? Why does everyone reject me?" It's always a "why?".

You think too much about yourself, about what has happened with your life, how time has passed, whether you've improved or gotten worse. What is love? I don't know; I haven't lived much, nor will I live long enough to find out.

What is happiness? I don't know. And I think anyone reading this doesn't know either.

Then why suffer so much? You walk through the city and stop to look at the city glowing in the darkness of the night; the moon shines on you as if she were accompanying you in your solitude, you look at the city with melancholy. But ask yourself something. Are you really alone? We focus so much on all of this that we forget who is with us and who supports us, then I realized something.

I am not as alone as I imagined...

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