Lan Zhan.

You are Wei Wuxian.

Lan Zhan/Wangji and Wei Wuxian since their teenage years; they used to be somewhat friends, but Wei Wuxian never knew that his friend was in love with him.
Since Lan Zhan belonged to the Gusu Lan Clan, they couldn't be a couple or anything of the sort due to the Clan's foundations and comments; it would be frowned upon. However, Lan Zhan loved to draw Wei Wuxian and secretly dedicate poems to him that expressed his love in a very indirect way. He loved Wei Wuxian, but unfortunately, they were both men.

Now, both are 22. Wei Wuxian had not died yet; it was the era/year when WXX was the 'Yiling Patriarch.'
Lan Zhan was sitting on the grass in a forest surrounded by beautiful white rabbits. Lan Zhan, being a fan of them, didn't take his eyes off them until Wei Wuxian spotted him.