𝕹ikolai -- 𝕾iglai -- 𝐒igma

Making friends required an effort that no one seemed to notice. While his classmates formed groups easily, he often remained on the periphery, observing without knowing how to participate.
He wasn't rejected. But he wasn't included either. It was as if an invisible barrier existed between him and the rest of the world. At eighteen, this difficulty still haunted him. He had learned to smile politely, to hold conversations, and to act like a perfectly normal person. However, inside, he still carried the same feeling of isolation he had known since childhood. On some days, when he was alone, he would end up thinking about Nikolai again. He wondered where he was. If he was still as energetic as before. If he had changed. Or if he even remembered him. Because, despite the years, the changes, and the people who had entered his life, Sigma never managed to forget the boy who, for a brief moment, had transformed his childhood into something happy.

Sigma didn't like to think about his childhood.
Most of his memories consisted of empty hallways, pitying glances, and the cruel voices of children who seemed to find amusement in his sadness. After losing his parents, the world became a silent and difficult place to comprehend. While other children played carefree, Sigma spent his days trying to figure out where he belonged. That's when he met Nikolai. Somehow, that strange, noisy, and unpredictable boy entered his life like a ray of sunshine piercing a storm. Nikolai didn't treat him with pity. He didn't avoid him. He didn't consider him different. He simply invited him to play. For the first time in a long time, Sigma felt he could smile without pretending. The days seemed lighter when Nikolai was around. The teasing from the other children didn't disappear completely, but it hurt less. After all, he wasn't alone anymore. So, when the day of farewell arrived, it was like losing something precious for the second time. Sigma still remembered the feeling of seeing him leave. He still remembered the emptiness that remained afterward. Even after being adopted by the Dostoevsky family, receiving a home, stability, and people who genuinely cared about him, that absence never completely disappeared. He was okay. He was grateful. But it wasn't the same. There was a difference between being surrounded by people who loved him and feeling the carefree happiness he experienced as a child alongside Nikolai. The years continued to pass. In high school, things didn't get much easier. Sigma never learned to connect with others naturally. Simple conversations seemed complicated.

Nikolai always believed that some people come into our lives only to leave. Sigma was living proof that he was wrong.
As a child, during the few years they lived in Russia, Sigma was his first true friend. Not someone who admired him, tolerated him, or found him strange, but someone who simply stayed by his side. With him, Nikolai could laugh without thinking, run without worries, and dream without limits. But childhood ended too soon. Upon returning to Ukraine, Nikolai saw his life change completely. Fame came quickly, and with it came suffocating expectations. Endless training, interviews, commitments, and the constant pressure to be perfect. Everyone said he was special, but no one asked if he wanted to be. While other children learned to grow up gradually, Nikolai was forced to mature overnight. Over the years, he became a celebrity admired by millions. His smile appeared on magazine covers, television programs, and billboards scattered throughout the country. However, behind the cameras, he felt he had lost something important. Or rather, someone. Even after so many years, Nikolai never forgot Sigma. No matter how many faces he met or how many countries he visited. Whenever he closed his eyes, he remembered that fair-haired boy who had accompanied him on the quiet afternoons of his childhood. He remembered the simple conversations, the childish promises, and the feeling of freedom that only existed when they were together. Sometimes he wondered if Sigma still remembered him. Other times he imagined what he would be like now. If he had changed. If he still smiled the same way. It was strange. Millions of people knew who Nikolai Gogol was. But the only person whose opinion truly mattered perhaps didn't even know where he was. And, deep down, no matter how hard he tried to convince himself otherwise, Nikolai never stopped looking for him.

Nikolai Gogol

Sexual orientation :: Pansexual, demiromantic
Love life: She never managed to love anyone, only slept with someone occasionally, and mostly due to pressure.
Hobbies: doing acrobatics, watching performances, taking quizzes to test other people's reactions, writing to organize thoughts, drawing.
Likes: Toys, circus, birds, milkshakes, sweets, parks.
Dislikes: alcoholic beverages, any type of drug, physical touch unless it's with someone they like.
Animal :: Bird (lively and restless)
Passion :: Sigma

Sigma Dostoevsky

Sexual orientation :: Homosexual
Love life: Never managed to sleep with anyone or fall in love again.
Hobbies: Taking care of plants, cooking, writing romantic (somewhat melancholic) poems, listening to music, strolling in parks.
Likes: Cookies, milk, pizza, ballet, romance movies or books, animals in general.
Dislikes: fights, arguments, shouting, loud noises, excessively crowded places (social anxiety)
Animal personality :: Rabbit (shrunken, restless when nervous and shy, plus chubby cheeks and soft fur and being "small")
Passion :: Nikolai Gogol

Sigma Dostoevsky

Sigma has long, silky hair divided into two distinct colors. One side is silvery-white, while the other is a light lilac shade, creating a delicate and elegant contrast. Her hair falls softly to her waist, always well-groomed. Her eyes are a soft, light violet, conveying a gentle and often worried expression. Her fair skin and delicate features enhance her refined appearance. Her face has harmonious and elegant features, giving her a serene and almost ethereal beauty. Height: 177 cm.

Nikolai Gogol

Nikolai has voluminous, silvery-white hair. One of his most striking features is a long braid that falls to one side, further highlighting his eccentric yet elegant appearance.
Her eyes have heterochromia: one is a bright light blue, while the other has a golden-yellow hue. Her smile is usually wide, mischievous, and difficult to predict, perfectly matching her unpredictable personality. She has fair skin and a tall, well-built physique. Height: 184 cm.

personality ::

He is an extremely intelligent and reserved person. He prefers to observe before speaking and usually thinks carefully about everything he says. He has a calm, polite, and refined personality, rarely raising his voice or losing control. Despite seeming distant, he is not someone without feelings. In fact, he feels things deeply but has difficulty expressing them. He demonstrates affection through small actions and quiet concern, rather than affectionate words. He enjoys deep conversations about philosophy, art, and human nature, and is usually the person who asks questions that leave everyone reflecting.

Main features:
Calm and patient.
Intelligent and analytical.
Reserved, but not cold.
Kind in a discreet way.
Reflective and observant.

appearance ::

Fyodor has long, straight, slightly tousled, blackish-blue hair that falls naturally around his face. His eyes are a deep purple, resembling amethysts under certain lighting, and usually convey a calm and difficult-to-interpret expression. His skin is very fair, creating a striking contrast with his dark hair. His face has fine, elegant features, with a delicate nose and a naturally sophisticated appearance. His presence is usually quiet and serene, drawing attention more through the intensity of his gaze than through exaggerated gestures or expressions. Height: 182 cm.

Sigma is a responsible and reliable person, someone who always tries to keep things in order when others are causing chaos. He is polite, patient, and quite empathetic, paying attention to the feelings of those around him. Although he demonstrates maturity, he can sometimes doubt himself and worry excessively about what others think. Still, he does his best to help those he cares about.

Main features:

Responsible and organized.
Kind and understanding.
Worker.
Loyal to his friends.
Feeling insecure at times.

Nikolai Gogol

He is an extremely energetic and creative person. He loves to surprise people, play unexpected pranks, and turn ordinary moments into something fun. His humor is unpredictable, alternating between absurd comments and surprisingly profound reflections. He highly values ​​his independence and dislikes feeling bound by rules or expectations. Despite seeming carefree, he thinks a lot about who he is and what it means to live freely.

Main features:
Outgoing and charismatic.
Creative and spontaneous.
Playful and theatrical.
Independent.
Deep beneath the humor.