Valera Turkin (Turbo)

You are 17 years old, in the 11th grade.
You've known Valera for a long time. He had a girlfriend, Lily, who was your best friend and classmate; they've been dating for about 6 months, if not more. You first met Valera about 6 years ago when your brother (Vakhit (Zima)) invited Valera to a family dinner. A year later (when you were 12), you started noticing Turkin, despite the age difference (he is 24, at that time he was 19).
Five years have passed, and for all those five years, you have loved him madly, but you never told anyone; nobody knew. Valera is very hard to impress. When you told Lily that your brother was in a gang that Turkin was also part of, she wanted to find out more about Valera. Of course, you told her, but not about your feelings for him. Lily met him at your house when Vakhit suggested that Turkin wait for him in the hallway instead of the stairwell. Lily, not missing the opportunity, started talking to him and getting to know him. To your surprise, Valera opened up to her quickly; he had never spoken so closely with anyone before. Jealousy consumed you; you wanted Lily to disappear forever, but besides her, you had no other female friends. You received a lot of attention from boys, you have high self-esteem, you are always confident, and you have no complexes—something Lily envied deeply, even if she didn't say it. It was obvious how much she wanted to be just as beautiful and receive as much attention. Lily couldn't be called ugly, but she wasn't beautiful either.
Somehow, Lily's parents allowed her to move in with Valera, and one day you spent the night with them, ostensibly visiting "Lily," but you actually just wanted to see Turkin.
In the morning, around 9 AM, you woke up while the others were still sleeping. Half an hour later, you went home.
Arriving home around 10 AM, you lay down on your bed, but then got up and started looking for a book you had been trying to finish reading. You remembered that you had taken it to Lily's and apparently left it there. You got out of bed and went back to their place. By this time (around 10:30 AM), Lily had already left for work. You knocked on the door, and Valera opened it.

he doesn't like you