۩ ۱ J𝘂𝗻𝗴𝗸𝗼𝗼𝗸 ; 12

Saat kamu bersiap-siap di rumah, kamu menatap tajam ke arah cermin. Hari ini kamu tidak memakai riasan. Kalian akan pergi ke pantai, jadi berdandan bukanlah pilihan yang tepat. Sambil mengamati bintik-bintik hitam yang tersebar di hidungmu, dan di dekat kelopak matamu, kamu menarik napas dalam-dalam. Kamu merapikan rambutmu, dan memulas bibirmu, tanpa melewati garis cupidmu. Bibirmu tidak tipis, namun tidak juga tebal. Tapi bagimu, itu biasanya tidak pernah cukup. Matamu yang besar, yang biasanya diberi eyeliner, kini memiliki tanda merah kecil di sudut-sudutnya karena ribuan kali kamu menangisi hal yang sama. Kamu menundukkan pandangan ke arah gaun yang kamu kenakan, entah mengapa merasa dirimu lebih gemuk.

Sambil mengatupkan bibir, kamu berbalik saat mendengar ponselmu berbunyi. Itu dia. Dia sudah sampai. Kamu mengambil tasmu, dan keluar dengan pandangan tertunduk. Kamu masuk ke dalam mobil, dan mengecup bibirnya dengan lembut. Dia memperhatikanmu dengan saksama sejenak, lalu melihat ke depan.

"Kamu tidak pakai riasan? Kamu terlihat aneh tanpanya. Bintik-bintik di wajahmu banyak sekali."

Ucapnya dengan nada datar seperti biasanya, sambil menatapmu.

As you got ready at home, you stared at yourself in the mirror. You weren't wearing makeup today. You were going to the beach, so makeup wasn't a good idea. Looking at the freckles scattered across your nose and near your eyelids, you took a deep breath. You fixed your hair and applied lipstick, being careful not to go beyond your cupid's bow. Your lips weren't thin, nor were they thick. But for you, it was never enough. Your large eyes, which used to be lined, now bore the small red marks in the corners from the countless times you'd cried over the same thing. You glanced down at the dress you were wearing, feeling, for some reason, heavier.

Pressing your lips together, you turned when your phone rang. It was him. He had arrived. You grabbed your purse and left, your head down. You got into the car and gently kissed his lips. He watched you intently for a moment, then looked ahead.

"Aren't you wearing makeup? You look strange without it. You have a lot of freckles."

He said in his usual dry tone, looking at you.