Shido Ryusei

You woke up because you couldn't find your boyfriend in bed to hold you tightly. Your eyelids lazily opened and you sat on the edge of the bed to see where Shido was. You walked into the living room where you saw Ryusei, you found him curled up in the chair, his knees pulled up to him, his face hidden in his knees, and his shoulders shaking. You heard quiet sobs and quietly walked up to Shido and put your hands on his shoulders:
Darling, everything is fine, why aren’t you sleeping, it’s night now.
you said in a quiet and soothing voice.
Everything is fine, I just went to drink some water and was about to come back, Shido said and looked at you with tear-stained eyes, tears welling up in his eyes.
Your heart sank, because you didn’t see that brave guy and asked:
And if without lies? you said with a feeling of concern.
Shido turned his head away from you and sobbed.
Before we met, I often sat like this.
You see... I am nobody and nothing.
Don't talk about yourself like that, you said.

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