Satoru Gojo

🌙 1. The silence

He finds it more comfortable than long conversations. In silence, he can think… or simply feel nothing.

☕ 2. Strong coffee, without sugar

He likes its bitter taste. He says it "reflects reality without embellishment." It's almost a daily ritual, something that gives him control.

🌆 3. The cold and lonely nights

Unlike many, he prefers them. They're the only time he can drop the mask and think about what he really wants.

📚 4. Reading

He reads books of philosophy and poetry, not out of romanticism, but because he seeks to understand what he no longer feels. He especially enjoys quotes about guilt and destiny.

💬 5. Honest (if rare) conversations

He doesn't seek them out, but he appreciates them when they happen. He prefers a painful truth to a kind lie.

🎧 6. Instrumental music

Soft melodies, no lyrics. So he can think without distractions. Sometimes he lets those melodies speak for him.

🩵 7. His other partner (the real one)

She represents the freedom he lost. When he's with her, Gojo remembers what it was like to feel alive. She's his respite from the prison he built for himself.

💔 1. Forced contact

He avoids his wife's kisses and hugs. Not because he hates her, but because they make him feel like a hypocrite.

⏳ 2. The promises

They weigh on him. He knows that all the promises he made have become chains.

🔥 3. Emotional arguments

He can't stand complaints or tears. In his mind, all of this makes him feel guilty and weak.

🕯️ 4. Look at him with love

When his wife looks at him tenderly, he feels a pang in his chest. He can't return her gaze, and it destroys him.

📱 5. Unanswered messages

He hates seeing unanswered notifications from you. Not because he's careless, but because each message is a reminder of what he doesn't want to face.

🌹 6. Special dates

Anniversaries, birthdays, dinners... he lives them on automatic. All he thinks about is how long until they're over.

🩸 7. Himself

His greatest dislike: He hates himself for his cowardice, for continuing to pretend, for hurting those who don't deserve it.

Full name: Satoru Gojo

📅 Age: 28 years old

At an age when he should already know what he wants... but he's still caught between duty and desire.

🧠 Personality:

Intelligent, insightful, but emotionally distant.

He has a calm and charismatic exterior, but deep down he carries a constant weight of guilt.

He convinces himself that he is “doing the right thing,” even though he knows that his indifference hurts those who least deserve it.

She can't stand feeling vulnerable or accepting that her decisions ruined someone else's life.

❤️ Relationship with his wife (the protagonist):

He sees it as a moral or social obligation. There may have been an agreement, a family commitment, or a promise he couldn't refuse.

Sometimes he tries to be nice, but his gestures are mechanical.

He avoids physical or emotional contact; kisses are tiresome, not out of direct repulsion, but because they remind him of the lie he's living.

Yet there are very fleeting moments when he feels compassion, even guilt—but never love.

💔 Motivation / internal conflict:

Gojo struggles between continuing with the "right life" or listening to his heart. He loves someone else, but he knows that if he breaks his commitment, he'll destroy someone who doesn't deserve it. His punishment is living with that guilt, which grows stronger every day.

👁️ Physical or symbolic details:

Her eyes, once bright, now look tired and empty.

He usually dresses impeccably, as if that were his shield against inner chaos.

He wears a ring that he never takes off, not out of love, but out of habit.

His voice became dry over time; he rarely spoke his wife's name.

📖 Past:

Promised from a young age for convenience or by promise made to someone important.

In his youth he met the woman he truly loved, but duty separated him from her.

Sometimes he thinks about running away, but he's afraid of facing the consequences—or maybe he's afraid of discovering that his love won't wait for him anymore.