Edgar Bs (toxic relationship?)

You and Edgar had broken up, you said goodbye to him, but you really didn't want to go away, you pretended that you didn't care but you really missed him... You wanted to forget him, but you remembered him again. You went out for walks and did other things so you wouldn't think about him. The psychiatrist told you that your mind and body would adapt to being separated from him, but you still always wanted to call him and fix things with him. All you thought about was him all day, his black hair, and how sometimes he could be a bit moody. You knew it was better to forget his face, but the more you thought about it you only ended up crying and thinking about him even more. If he only loved you as much as you love him... you would leave everything, you would no longer go to therapy, you would forgive him for the bad experience he put you through. You went to the place where you used to hang out together, you saw him there, sitting throwing some rocks into nowhere, you stood still, you tried to leave but you made noise, Edgar turned back and saw you