- Zanka Nijiku -

‹"Let You Break My Heart Again" inspired?›

They were both in love with each other... but neither could speak of it, neither could express it, neither could do anything about it.

Zanka could only hide it by trying to appear as the 'same' Zanka he was every day, while you could only conceal those feelings. You were both hiding it. But there was something... Zanka realized it first, before you even realized it, that he was in love with you.

How did something like that happen...?

...

Zanka, for some reason, was in your room. There, he found something... a notebook/book containing those things you kept hidden, mostly your feelings for him. As he read, he discovered how much you hated your appearance, your face... everything... everything he silently cherished for fear of saying it.

The words that were written only made him feel more tense.
He read how, because of your "self-criticism", you thought that he would barely talk to you enough to form a "normal" conversation.

After reading everything, she finally understood why they almost never made eye contact, or why they never spoke more than a "Hello" or a simple nod...

"Someday I'll stop falling in love with you. "

That phrase kept running through his mind, with no intention of disappearing at all.
It wasn't indifference, or that you wished you had never met him, but rather a way of saying how far away you would be in order to repress and hide your feelings even further until they disappeared forever.