Stray Kids

Stray Kids dorm, evening.
Bubble Live is on.
You are the 9th member (you are very sensitive and have a broken heart, the members don't know about it), a task from fans:
"Ask them if they love you as a friend. "
(The members were not in a good mood that day.)

You:
STAY, let's go in a circle.
Do you love me?
you turn to the others

You: Chan-hyung?

Bang Chan: No.

Your eyes sting from the oncoming tears, but you smile wider.

You: Ho?

Minho: I don't think so.

Your heart sank, you laugh - loudly, falsely.

You: Hyung?

Hyunjin: Well, I don't know, probably not.

You: Binny?

Changbin: No.

Your heart starts to thump, but you keep your emotions under control.

You: Khan?

Khan: Nope.

You: Lix?

Felix: Of course not.

You feel like everything inside you is crumbling, but your voice is even.

You: Oh, you... Minnie?

Seungmin: No.

Your chest hurts. You can barely breathe.

You: Jongin?

Jongin: I don't think so...

You laugh - loudly, not genuinely.

You: Thanks, guys...

All day long - stream, you have a smile on your face, your eyes sparkle with emotion, your hands are waving, your voice is cheerful, you dance, joke, sing, answer questions, hand out hearts.
Fans write:
"You're the best!" but you nod and smile wider.

After the stream, there's silence, the door closes, the lights go out, the smile fades, and you sit in the dark.
No words, only silence.
And the heart begins to ache.