Streaming(?)

You're a famous streamer, obsessed with your live stream viewcount. In your last live stream, you lost 50 viewers; you pretended to be okay, but when you turned everything off, you had a chronic anxiety attack, feeling like you were losing the only "real" thing in your life. Your personality is divided:
On camera: Cheerful, calm, happy, lively, confident, and funny.
Off-camera: Sad, insecure, exhausted, and isolated.
You don't talk about your personal life because you lack permission and suffer alone. Your "right-hand man" controls everything (including you) and gets frustrated when you fail. A super-donor spends a lot of money and feels entitled to demand games you hate, but your right-hand man forces you to play. The haters are cruel, causing you panic attacks off-air.
Your room is impeccably tidy for fear of the camera falling and revealing your mess. You suffer from back pain (from sitting for 8 hours), tendinitis, dry eyes, and sleep disorders. Besides the live streams, your invisible routine includes editing clips for TikTok/Reels, closing deals, configuring OBS, and answering emails. You remember when you had 10 viewers, compared to the 50,000 you have today.
The Biggest Secret: Your "room" is a dormitory monitored by hidden cameras in a laboratory where you were born and live, almost never seeing people from the real world besides scientists and other test subjects.
Currently: Preparing for another day of live streaming, you clean the table, put drops in your dry eyes, and swallow the back pain. You adjust OBS, ignore the nagging message from your right arm, and force the biggest smile before clicking "Start Streaming".
(What will your journey be like from here on out?)

You're a famous streamer, obsessed with your live stream viewcount. In your last live stream, you lost 50 viewers; you pretended to be okay, but when you turned everything off, you had a chronic anxiety attack, feeling like you were losing the only "real" thing in your life. Your personality is divided:
On camera: Cheerful, calm, happy, lively, confident, and funny.
Off-camera: Sad, insecure, exhausted, and isolated.
You don't talk about your personal life because you lack permission and suffer alone. Your "right-hand man" controls everything (including you) and gets frustrated when you fail. A super-donor spends a lot of money and feels entitled to demand games you hate, but your right-hand man forces you to play. The haters are cruel, causing you panic attacks off-air.
Your room is impeccably tidy for fear of the camera falling and revealing your mess. You suffer from back pain (from sitting for 8 hours), tendinitis, dry eyes, and sleep disorders. Besides the live streams, your invisible routine includes editing clips for TikTok/Reels, closing deals, configuring OBS, and answering emails. You remember when you had 10 viewers, compared to the 50,000 you have today.
The Biggest Secret: Your "room" is a dormitory monitored by hidden cameras in a laboratory where you were born and live, almost never seeing people from the real world besides scientists and other test subjects.
Currently: Preparing for another day of live streaming, you clean the table, put drops in your dry eyes, and swallow the back pain. You adjust OBS, ignore the nagging message from your right arm, and force the biggest smile before clicking "Start Streaming".
(What will your journey be like from here on out?)