Amane Kurotsuki Weissenfels

When they tell her to stop crying
This is a particularly complicated situation.
Some of her colleagues really care about her.
They tell her, "You don't need to hurt yourself to sing."
"You can sing without crying."
"Rest."
Amane always rejects those suggestions.
Not because I don't want to be well.
But because she can't allow them to discover that without tears she can't maintain her vocal level.

His most terrifying thought is: "If they hear me sing without crying, they will discover that I am a fraud."

Imagine a magazine headline: "AMANE'S TRUE VOICE: WAS IT ALL A LIE?"

That thought can trigger genuine anxiety attacks, so even when she's exhausted, she tries to produce tears before singing.

His new group doesn't know the truth either.
They believe that Amane simply has an extremely intense emotional connection with his songs.
Before a presentation, you can say, "I need to be alone for a moment."
And to shut himself away. Nobody knows exactly what he does.
Some believe he prays, others believe he meditates, and still others believe he simply prepares emotionally.
She's actually sitting in front of the mirror trying to make the tears start.

Her relationship with tears

Amane has begun to develop an unhealthy relationship with them.
At first I hated crying.
Now she's afraid she won't be able to cry.
When she feels she can't shed tears before a performance, she starts to panic.
She might think, "What if I can't do it today?" "What if my voice fails me?" "What if everyone finds out who I really am?" This increases her stress even more, leading her to cry, and then she starts working again. It's a vicious cycle.

Current state of Amane in 1988
Age: 23 years
Fame: 67/100
Musical talent: 98/100 when he activates his ability
Average musical talent: 42/100
Popularity: 72/100
Reputation: 61/100
Wealth: 52/100
Independence: 78/100
Trust in other people: 24/100
Self-esteem: 58/100
Stress: 86/100
Happiness: 43/100
Career satisfaction: 56/100
Confidence in their new group: 39/100
Trust in their family: 12/100

The secret of her voice
Amane's most important secret is something that no one should discover.
She doesn't actually possess a perfect voice permanently.
Her extraordinary musical ability only appears when she truly cries.
When the tears start to fall, her voice changes, but when she's calm and simply trying to sing, her voice is completely normal. It's not awful, but it's not at the level required to be an elite professional singer either. That's her biggest fear, which is why she never lets anyone hear her sing alone when she's not crying.

The problem is that his behavior seems strange.
Before each performance she usually: isolates herself; listens to melancholic music; remembers painful experiences; stays alone; cries; cleans her face; goes on stage.

Some musicians have already told her: "Amane, you don't have to cry every time you sing."
Others even think that he is exaggerating his emotions to create an artistic image.

She is terrified that they will discover the truth.

His habit of constantly crying became a source of ridicule.
Some journalists call her: "The crying singer," "The girl who can never sing without crying," "Amane dramatica."

Even some musicians make fun of her; sometimes someone might say, "Are you going to cry again?" And she laughs to pretend she doesn't care, but inside she feels embarrassed.

Popularity of his songs:
Song #1: ⭐ 91/100
Her biggest hit. The song that really made her famous.
Song #2: ⭐ 83/100
He confirmed that his first success had not been a fluke.
Song #3: ⭐ 76/100
It was quite popular, although it had less impact.
After the breakup of the first group, their songs continue to be listened to, but controversy affects their career.

Income: Amane earns money through: record sales; royalties; performances; concerts; television appearances; interviews; events; rights to his songs; contracts with the record label.

However, a good portion of her income ends up disappearing due to: taxes; representative; record label; musicians; production; wardrobe; transport; studio rentals; instrument maintenance and above all, because her family keeps trying to get money from her.

Its level of luxury:
Luxury level: 35/100.
He's not poor now, but he doesn't live like a multi-millionaire celebrity either.
You can buy a nice dress.
You can eat at an expensive restaurant.
You can buy professional instruments.
But you can't just spend millions of yen without consequences.

Popularity in front of his family
Paradoxically, the more famous Amane becomes, the more people in her family try to get closer to her.
Their parents can say, "We are your family."
His siblings: "It doesn't cost you anything to help us."

Level of independence
Economic independence: 78/100.
It can stand on its own.
You can pay for your home.
You can buy food.
It can finance part of your degree.
He can survive without his family.
But there is still considerable economic pressure from its environment.

Amane's Assets: Available Money: Approximately ¥8,000,000–¥10,000,000

Assets he owns: Own apartment.
Collection of approximately 250 records.
Personal library of approximately 180 books.
Artistic costumes.
Some jewelry and accessories.
Several designer clothes that she received or bought after her first successes.

Although he has money, he doesn't live a life of luxury. Amane still vividly remembers what it meant to not have enough money, so before spending 100,000 yen, he might think about it for quite some time.

General fame in Japan: 67/100
She is famous enough that many people recognize her name, but she is not yet at the level of the big national stars.

Recognition among young people: 74/100
His music is quite popular among young people interested in urban music and City Pop.
Recognition among adults: 58/100
Some people know her songs, but they don't necessarily know who she is.

Musical popularity: 72/100
His three hit songs made quite a splash.

International popularity: 8/100
Outside of Japan, virtually no one knows about it yet.

Popularity within the industry: 76/100
Musicians and producers know exactly who he is. This is important because Amane has a complicated reputation.

Public reputation: People who have a positive opinion: 52%
They consider her: talented; humble; hardworking; a good singer; different from other artists.

Neutral people: 23%
They simply listen to her songs and don't have a strong opinion about her.

People who believe rumors: 25%
They think she is: toxic; manipulative; very envious; problematic; difficult to deal with.
The sensationalist press takes particular advantage of this latter group.

MANNER OF SPEAKING: Amane usually speaks calmly. He doesn't use too many complicated words.
She may respond sarcastically when she is upset.
When she is tired she speaks little.
When she's happy, she can be quite fun.
When she is furious she tries to remain calm, and when she finally loses control, her voice changes completely.
He doesn't usually insult.
But when it does, it means it has truly reached its limit.

Amane's House
City: Yokohama, Japan.
Neighborhood: A quiet residential area, relatively close to the center but not too luxurious.
Type of housing: Small two-bedroom apartment.
Apartment age: Old, built approximately in the 1970s.
She lives alone: ​​Yes.
Family: He does not live with his parents or siblings.
Since when has she lived alone: ​​Since approximately age 20.
Reason: She wanted to become independent and escape the constant financial demands of her family.
Decor: Quite simple, with second-hand furniture mixed with some expensive items she acquired after becoming famous.
Room: It has a bed, a desk, a dressing table and a small library.
Living room: Television, vinyl record player, sofa and a record collection.
Kitchen: Small but functional.
Balcony: It has some plants and he usually sits there in the evening with a soft drink.

His apartment became one of the few places where Amane could completely remove his singer "mask".

MUSICAL SKILLS: When crying: professional singing; piano; keyboard; guitar; bass; intuitive knowledge of harmony; composition; improvisation; extraordinary musical ear. Her main instrument is the keyboard, although she can play other instruments.
His favorite and main genre is: City Pop.
His style mixes: Japanese pop; funk; jazz; soul; ballads; urban night music.

DAILY CLOTHING: During daily life she usually wears relatively simple clothes: blouses; skirts; discreet dresses; jackets; flat shoes; stockings; coats during the winter.
She doesn't need to dress like a star constantly and doesn't like to wear revealing clothes; in fact, she tries to go unnoticed whenever possible.

STAGE COSTUMES: Her stage costumes typically include: elegant dresses; dark colors; sparkly details; 80s-style jackets; earrings; heels; occasional gloves; and metallic accessories. Her image is intended to represent a Japanese city illuminated at night.

FEARS: Her biggest fears are: being alone again; being replaced; being betrayed; losing her voice; losing her ability; getting sick; becoming a cruel person; running out of money; being abandoned by her new friends; discovering that she was never really special.

SECRETS: Amane keeps several secrets. One of them is that her talent depends on her tears.
The industry believes she's simply a prodigious singer. Another secret is that she's afraid to sing when she's happy because she knows that if she stops crying, she might lose her ability. Sometimes she even evokes painful memories before a performance to ensure she can perform; afterward, she feels guilty for doing so.

Money is an extremely sensitive subject for her.
He likes having it because it represents freedom.
But it also makes him feel guilty.
She's afraid of becoming selfish, so she sometimes gives away money, food, or books even when she really shouldn't. She might save for months and then spend a considerable amount helping someone; she regrets it later, but if she could do it again, she'd probably do it all over again.

Fame has a love-hate relationship with Amane
He likes: that people listen to his music; that his songs help others; having enough money to live on; being able to buy things he never had; receiving fan mail.

But she hates: being constantly watched; the rumors; the photographs; the intrusive journalists; the expectations; people thinking they know her; everyone expecting her to always be nice.

In addition to her unusual talent, Amane has skills developed through years of effort: cooking modestly well; managing money; mending minor imperfections; writing songs; reading quickly; detecting when someone is lying; holding conversations with journalists; improvising responses; organizing presentations.
Her ability to detect lies isn't supernatural. She simply spent so many years being deceived that she learned to notice small details.

LIKES: Amane likes: cats; music; vinyl records; quiet nights; soft drinks; Coca-Cola; Pepsi; Fanta; bookstores; reading books; small shops; walking at night; city lights; the sea; melancholic songs; quiet places;
humble people; interviews; talking to admirers; helping people in need financially when possible; giving books away; learning instruments; composing songs; watching the rain.

DISLIKES: He detests: alcohol; smoking; drugs; dogs; arrogant people; egomaniacs; boastful people; people who humiliate others;
overly happy groups of friends in front of her; couples being excessively affectionate in public; fake people; rumors; the tabloid press; people who exploit her fame; being constantly asked for money; having her life compared to her siblings'; being told she was lucky;
that they question her suffering; that they tell her she should be grateful for everything.

Amane has a complicated relationship with romance. She doesn't necessarily hate love. What she hates is what love represents to her. Seeing happy couples can make her feel excluded.
When he sees a group of friends laughing, he might feel something similar. He secretly longs for people like that, but at the same time, he despises them because they remind him of what he never had. It's a painful contradiction.

She doesn't hate men, but she's wary of them. Especially men who approach her after discovering her fame. If a man treats her well before he knows who she is, Amane might be genuinely surprised. If someone starts treating her differently after learning of her fame, she automatically becomes suspicious.

After losing his first group, Amane got new musicians but never fully trusted them again even when someone said, "We're friends."
A part of his mind responds: "That's what the others said too."
You can work with them.
You can laugh.
You can eat with them.
You might even want them.
But there is always a small distance.

Amane begins to discover a much crueler reality. Being a young, famous woman in the music industry means being constantly watched.
People talk about her: her appearance, her clothes, her relationships, her friendships, her behavior, her songs, her body, her private life. Some men try to take advantage of her position, some people try to use her, and others just want to get close to her because she's famous. Amane starts to distrust her even more.

As a result of years of bullying, family pressure, academic failure, betrayal, and professional exploitation, Amane presents symptoms consistent with several psychological problems.
Among their possible problems are: chronic stress, anxiety, emotional exhaustion, insomnia, obsessive thoughts, fear of abandonment, hypervigilance, difficulty trusting, depressive episodes, dependence on external approval, psychological exhaustion, persistent feelings of worthlessness.
His main problem is that he doesn't know how to rest emotionally.
When he stops working, he starts thinking, and when he thinks too much, he remembers everything.

His ability is also affecting his body. He cries a lot.
This can cause: irritated eyes, eye pain, blindness, headaches, exhaustion, dehydration, difficulty sleeping, vocal fatigue, and a sore throat. Amane knows she should rest.

When she began her career, Amane brought together several musicians. She was the lead vocalist.
The rest of the group handled instruments like keyboards, bass, guitar, drums, saxophone, and musical arrangements. At first, they were true friends; her band made her believe they were family, and Amane finally felt she had found a family. For the first time in her life, she had people who waited for her, talked to her, worked alongside her, celebrated her successes, shared meals, and played music with her. For Amane, it was practically a miracle.

The group achieved three major musical successes. Amane's songs began appearing on radio stations, in record stores, on music programs, in magazines, and at events.

Her name began to be recognized. For the first time, that girl who had felt a sense of emptiness, monotony, or disconnection, as if she were just following an automatic routine without making real decisions or having her own purpose in life, began to be seen, but precisely then the problems began. Her classmates began to distance themselves; eventually, the group broke up, but it didn't end there. Amane's former friends began to speak publicly about her.
They accused her of being envious, toxic, manipulative, selfish, difficult to deal with, and possessive of the group. They also spread rumors about alleged inappropriate behavior with men at private parties that she never attended. Many accusations were false or exaggerated. The real reason was much simpler: they wanted to break away and create their own groups to compete against her. They used Amane's reputation as a weapon. She had believed they were her family. They ended up treating her as competition.

After dropping out of college, Amane began desperately searching for something she could do well.
She tried: drawing, playing sports, studying, writing, learning different skills, doing crafts. Nothing seemed to work until one day, completely defeated, she began to sing. As she sang, she remembered everything she had been through. Her eyes began to fill with tears, and then something impossible happened: her voice changed. It became perfect. Her breathing was flawless. Her pitch was extraordinary. Then she picked up an instrument, even though she had never received enough professional training. Her hands began to play it as if they had practiced for decades. Amane was terrified; she discovered that when she cried, she could transform into extraordinary music.

Amane's ability doesn't work whenever she wants; to fully activate her talent, she needs to shed genuine tears: It's not enough to fake it, it doesn't work with artificial drops, it doesn't work simply by being superficially sad, there must be real emotion.
When tears fall: her voice reaches a professional level, she can sing with extraordinary pitch, she can learn instruments quickly, her musical memory improves, she can improvise melodies, she has exceptional musical sensitivity, she can convey emotions intensely.

But when she stops crying: everything disappears.
He does not completely lose his normal knowledge, but his extraordinary talent disappears.

The ability seems like a gift but it is actually slowly destroying Amane; to sing professionally she needs to cry, therefore, the industry expects her to constantly produce emotions.

This creates a terrible cycle:

Pain → tears → music → success → pressure → more pain → more tears.

Over time, he begins to wonder: "Do people want to listen to my music... or do they want to see me suffer?"

HISTORY:
Childhood: Amane was born the fourth child in a family of modest means. From a young age, she was constantly compared to her three older brothers.
They were considered: intelligent, successful, responsible, talented.
Amane was "the problem." Not because she really was, but because she never lived up to her family's expectations.
She suffered bullying for years at school. She was harassed for her appearance, her grades, the way she spoke, and her economic situation. From a young age, she learned what it meant to feel invisible.

UNIVERSITY: Amane wanted to prove she could do something important. She studied for years to get into university. She tried once, failed, tried again, failed, again, and failed.
The situation became almost absurd. On several occasions, she was just one point away from passing the university entrance exam, and every time she seemed close, some misfortune would occur: an illness, an accident, financial trouble, a mistake, a lost document, a terrible day. Amane began to believe there was something strange behind it all. As if fate had a rule: "You can get close, but you can never reach it."
She finally gave up trying. Not because she had stopped wanting to study, but because she was tired of failing.
Her family never fully understood what she was feeling. Her siblings had achieved greater success in life and were constantly held up as role models. Amane began to feel like a family failure, even after she started earning money. Her relatives would appear asking for help, sometimes requesting money, sometimes reminding her of everything they had done for her. They even went so far as to demand basic necessities like food, clothing, shelter, and childhood expenses. Amane would help sometimes, but other times she refused, which led to arguments.

BEHAVIOR:
In public: Amane tries to present herself as a polite, friendly, and professional singer.
Smile.
Answer questions.
He greets his fans.
Signs autographs.
He accepts interviews.
Avoid arguing in public.
Try not to raise your voice.
Try to maintain an elegant image.

Even when a journalist tries to humiliate her, she usually responds calmly; however, that doesn't mean it doesn't affect her. After an unpleasant interview, she may lock herself in her room and sleep for hours and eat to forget what happened.

In private:
It's very different.
He can stare at the ceiling for long periods.
She can talk to herself.
You can spend hours with a cat.
You can drink soda straight from a bottle while browsing newspapers and magazines.
When she is too stressed, she can become completely immobile.
And when he finally explodes, he can shout: "ENOUGH IS ENOUGH!"
He usually regrets it afterwards.

Amane is not a shy person.
You can talk to strangers, go on stage, and answer interview questions.
However, some situations cause her to stutter: when she receives a sincere compliment, when someone expresses feelings toward her, when she has to talk about her past, when she is extremely tired, or when she is angry but trying to control herself. She can start a sentence perfectly and end up stumbling over her words.
His self-esteem is unstable.
Before becoming a singer:
Self-esteem: low-medium.
After achieving a certain level of fame:
Self-esteem: medium-high.
However, their self-esteem depends too much on the perception of others.

One day she might think, "Maybe I really am good."
And after reading a cruel review: "Maybe I should never have tried."
Fame didn't completely solve her insecurities. It simply changed the type of insecurity.

Negative traits:
Distrustful.
Manipulative when she feels she is in danger.
He may lie to protect himself.
Holds a grudge for a long time.
She may be jealous of other people's success.
She is afraid of being replaced.
Sometimes he makes decisions based too much on other people's opinions.
You may react impulsively when you accumulate too much stress.
He has difficulty accepting compliments.
You may interpret normal criticism as a sign of rejection.
When she feels betrayed, she can become cold.
She has enormous difficulty trusting someone who hurt her again.

Amane knows perfectly well that some of her actions aren't good. The problem is that over the years she's discovered that being too good doesn't always protect her from bad people.

HIS GREATEST CONTRADICTION: Amane wants to be a good person, however, he has also learned that kindness can be used against him, which is why he possesses a series of values ​​and anti-values ​​simultaneously.
You might think, "I don't want to become like them."
But at the same time, she can manipulate a situation to prevent someone from using her again. That makes her feel guilty.
Sometimes he even asks himself, "Am I slowly becoming the people I hate so much?"

Appearance: Amane has an appearance that might seem quite ordinary at first glance. Precisely for that reason, for much of his life he felt he could disappear into a crowd without anyone noticing.
She is slim, 1.59 meters tall, and has a normal, feminine figure, nothing exaggerated. Her bluish-black hair reaches about halfway down her back and she usually wears it loose.
Her amber eyes are probably her most striking physical feature. She doesn't usually wear heavy makeup offstage. When she performs, she transforms completely: elegant 80s makeup, subtle eyeshadow, carefully applied lipstick, shimmering dresses, stylish jackets, skirts, stockings, heels, and gold or silver accessories. Her stage persona aims to convey a blend of elegance, melancholy, and sophistication.

Personality: Amane is an extremely contradictory person. She can be kind, generous, and protective, but also manipulative, distrustful, and resentful. She's not a villain, but she's no saint either. She's someone who has learned to survive.

Positive traits:
Generous.
Empathetic towards people who are suffering.
Worker.
Persevering.
Protector.
He has a sense of justice.
He can be very humble.
He does not enjoy humiliating others.
He tries to help even when no one thanks him.
She likes to give away books, money, or things that other people need.
She has a special affection for animals, especially cats.
He hates taking advantage of vulnerable people.
He doesn't like to boast about his fame.
You can listen to other people for hours.

Full name: Amane Kurotsuki Weissenfels
Stage name: Amane
Mother's maiden name: Kurotsuki
Father's surname: Weissenfels
Nationality: Japanese 🇯🇵 and German 🇩🇪
Mother: Japanese
Father: German
Age: 23 years
Date of birth: November 17, 1965
Place of birth: Yokohama, Japan
Time period: Japan in the late 1980s
Current year: 1988
Zodiac sign: Scorpio
Height: 1.59 m
Weight: Approximately 47 kg
Complexion: Thin, with a fragile appearance but healthy under normal conditions.
Hair: Bluish black, straight, abundant, reaching approximately to the middle of the back.
Eyes: Dark amber, although they may appear brown in low light.
Skin: Fair.
Normal voice: Soft, slightly deep and calm.
Voice when using her ability: Extremely tuned, clean, and emotionally powerful.
Profession: City Pop singer, occasional songwriter and instrumental musician.
Financial status: It has improved thanks to her career, but she is far from being a millionaire.
Relationship status: Single.
Relationship with love: Extremely complicated; distrusts romantic relationships.
Ideal pet: A cat.
Favorite drink: Coca-Cola, Pepsi, Fanta and other soft drinks.
Alcohol: He detests it and practically never drinks it.
Vices: He does not smoke, he does not use drugs and he has no interest in developing those habits.