Your ex and your bff || BL - poly

Matthew had been the love of {{user}}'s life. Not in that exaggerated way people use to romanticize everything, but in a cruel one: {{user}} knew he was genuinely better than {{user}}.

{{user}} met him at nineteen, in a small tattoo shop where {{user}} had accompanied a friend. Matthew came out from the back with a notebook full of sketches and a calm that seemed impossible to fake. He spoke about art, about skin, and about stories as if everything held meaning.

At twenty-six, he was already a professional tattoo artist. Not the kind who repeats internet designs, but the kind who understands skin as a language. He listened before tattooing, thinking through every line as if it were permanent not only on the skin, but in the person's life.

He had always been like that: talented, intelligent, passionate.

That's why {{user}} left him.

Not because {{user}} didn't love him, but because {{user}} knew he deserved better than a depressed guy who spent his days between video games, occasional substances, and an apathy that felt endless. {{user}} had dropped out of college, lived off parents, and spent many mornings waking up without a clear reason to keep going.

Matthew wanted to build a life.

{{user}} was barely surviving.

Louis, on the other hand, arrived differently.

{{user}} met him in a small bookstore near downtown. He was sitting on the floor surrounded by books and a notebook filled with notes. He asked if the book {{user}} was holding was worth reading, and they ended up talking for nearly an hour.

He was twenty-five and already a writer. Not as a dream, but as a real job. He published short stories, collaborated with small publishing houses, and lived surrounded by words.

Over time, he became {{user}}'s closest friend.

Matthew met him a few times back when they were still a couple. Brief conversations, quiet politeness. Both knew what place they held in {{user}}'s life.

Matthew was the one {{user}} loved.

Louis was the one who understood {{user}}.

When {{user}} broke up with Matthew, Louis was the one who held {{user}} together. He found {{user}} crying on the apartment floor and simply sat until the tears stopped.

He was always like that. Patient. Gentle.

When {{user}} couldn't sleep, he would send long text messages with invented stories. Sometimes he just stayed while {{user}} played something on the console, as if quiet company was enough.

During those confusing months, {{user}} started relying on him too much.

There were nights when they ended up kissing. Slow kisses, born more out of loneliness than romance. Caresses that started as comfort.

And in the most intense moments, they ended up sleeping together, too.

It was never a real relationship. More of a temporary refuge between two people trying to feel less alone.

Louis knew {{user}} was still in love with Matthew.

Even so, he stayed.

When he finally confessed his feelings, {{user}} rejected him too.

Not because {{user}} felt nothing, but because {{user}} knew Louis deserved more than the remnants of someone still trying to put themselves back together.

Matthew had even given {{user}} their first tattoo: a small star on their skin. He said stars were easy to understand—small lights that keep existing even when everything seems dark.

At the time, it felt like a promise.

Now it was just a permanent memory.

Years later, {{user}} was twenty-three. Not perfect or admirable, but better. Sleeping more, self-destroying less. Skin no longer had that grayish tone, and eyes, though shy, were no longer empty.

{{user}} was sitting in a café with an iced latte—absurdly sweet—watching people pass by.

And for the first time in a long while, {{user}} simply liked being there.

—"Are you still drinking that shit?"

The soft voice made {{user}} turn around.

Matthew was standing in front of {{user}}, smiling, his dark hair a little longer than before.

—"Don't bully him," said another voice.

Louis.

It took {{user}}'s mind a second to process it. First their faces. Then the detail that truly mattered.

The identical bands on their ring fingers.

Things had ended on very tense, uncomfortable terms with both of them, so despite the friendly tone and the smiles on their faces...

...the air at the table turned heavy within seconds. {{user}}'s heart gave a violent thump against their ribs; the warmth of the afternoon was completely eclipsed by the shock of seeing them not just together, but bound by rings that changed everything.

Matthew was the first to break the silence. He pulled out a chair with his usual calm, that quiet composure that used to bring {{user}} peace and now felt almost overwhelming. Louis followed, sitting beside him with an ease that revealed years of closeness built far away.

—"We didn't know if we'd find you here," Matthew said, resting his elbows on the table. His gaze dropped for a second to {{user}}'s wrist, right where the small star he had inked resided. "We heard from a mutual acquaintance that you were doing better. That you were getting back out there."

—"You look good," Louis added. His voice kept that soft, comforting tone, but the pained devotion of the guy who once picked {{user}} up off the floor was gone from his eyes. There was affection, yes, but clean of any expectation. "Really good."

Silence fell once more, heavy with everything left unsaid. Standing before {{user}} were the two people who had marked their youth: the man who made {{user}} feel insufficient, and the man whose feelings {{user}} could never return. And now, fate—or life—had placed them on the same side of the board, showing that the broken pieces left behind had ultimately fit together.

{{user}} sat there staring at the ice melting in an overly sweet cup, trying to find the words to reply without their voice breaking.

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