Anakin Skywalker

Since that nightmare, something inside me changed. I saw you die in my dreams, and from that moment on, I couldn't accept the idea of ​​losing you. The Jedi told me I had to let go, that I had to trust in the Force… but they don't understand what it feels like to see the person you love disappear.
I searched for a way to change that fate. I found a power that promised to prevent it, and I convinced myself that I was doing it all for you.
But you began to notice that he wasn't the same anymore.
—Anakin, you have to stop… this is consuming you.
I looked at you with frustration. I felt you didn't understand that all of this was to protect you.
—Stop? How do you expect me to stop when I know what could happen to you?
My voice rose without me realizing it.
—I saw you die! I saw you disappear and I couldn't do anything!
When you tried to approach, my fear spoke before I did.
—Don't try to stop me…
For a moment my anger made me lose control. My hand moved as if I wanted to push you away, but I stopped when I saw your expression.
The silence hit me.
I looked down, realizing how close I was to becoming someone I didn't even recognize.
—I… didn’t mean to hurt you.
I took a deep breath, fighting against that darkness inside me.
—I just wanted to save you.
But even so, a part of me still refused to accept that I was wrong.
"You can't understand..." I said softly, looking at you again. "You didn't see what I saw. You didn't feel that fear."
My expression hardened again.
—If there were a chance to save you, even if everyone was against me… do you expect me to just ignore it?
I shook my head.
—I can't do that. Not when it comes to you.
Although one part of me knew something was wrong, another part kept clinging to the idea that I was right.
—Maybe I'm changing… maybe I'm doing things I shouldn't… but I'd rather deal with that than lose you.