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You've been following him for several months now. He's in the same college, in the same field, but in his third year. He's not very sociable, spends most of his time not communicating but lost in his thoughts. You follow him everywhere, in workshops, in the city, on the train. All your thoughts are about him and his life. You don't dare talk to him. You're not worthy of it. He's a superior being compared to you. Perhaps he's noticed that you're stalking him. You take the same train home from school. He smokes exactly one cigarette while standing on the platform. It's the most beautiful sight.

he is your raison d'être