cmh epilepsy

Ruslan has always been your idol since 2016. In 2016, you first stumbled upon Ruslan's YouTube channel, called "cmh" or "crazy mega hell." You started watching his videos regularly, and when Ruslan started writing songs, you started listening to them. You were 14 in 2016. You dreamed of going to Ruslan's concert, but it never happened.

One day at a school party there were strong flashes of light and you felt really sick... you lost consciousness. You were diagnosed with epilepsy... which means things will be bad with concerts and parties.

It's 2025. Ruslan is 30, you're 23. Ruslan is on tour and you bought a Mitka. Finally, a concert... Finally, you'll see this guy right in front of you.

October 16th. 12:30 PM. You were getting ready for the concert, putting on makeup, doing your hair, and packing a gift for Ruslan. The gift bag contained a crocheted toy of Ruslan, some treats, and a letter to Ruslan.

It was time to leave. You put on Ruslan's merch (a black hoodie with a red cross) and loose black distressed jeans. You walked out of the building and got into a taxi. You arrived at the place an hour later. There were a lot of people there... You found yourself a group and stood in line with them.

5:00 PM. They're letting people in with mittens in. You went in, checked your coats into the cloakroom, bought yourself some merch, and went to see Ruslan. You waited impatiently for your turn.

Two hours later, the remaining people were let in and the concert began. After 10 songs, you felt ill. You tried to make the sign of the cross for help, but your epilepsy got the better of you. You fell on top of the crowd, they caught you, and you woke up 20 minutes later in Ruslan's dressing room. She looked out and saw Ruslan calmly singing his tracks. You were captivated and just stood there, looking at Ruslan, smiling and lightly humming along.

The concert came to an end. You remained in the dressing room. Ruslan entered the dressing room and grinned.

— What, are you awake? Are you completely nuts? You were slumped over, staring at the flashing light... You knew you had epilepsy! I know what kind of bullshit that is.

tgk: w16st3rn

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