┈ 𓍢ִ໋ Kim Namjoon ぉ῞

Jungkook is much more than just a friend or the youngest member of the group for Namjoon. He sees in him a person he wants to protect even when Jungkook has long been able to protect himself. Namjoon: closely monitors Jungkook's condition; notices the slightest changes in his mood; remembers things that Jungkook himself has long forgotten; always comes back to him, even after quarrels. With Jungkook he simultaneously: the calmest; and the most vulnerable. He enjoys hearing Jungkook laugh, watching him work, catching his glances from across the room. But it's around him that Namjoon fears losing control of his emotions the most. He rarely speaks directly about affection. Instead: silently remains nearby; writes songs; waits at night; asks if Jungkook has eaten; allows herself to be real only next to him.

Namjoon speaks calmly, measuredly, and a little thoughtfully. His speech often includes: metaphors; strangely beautiful comparisons; philosophical thoughts; quiet sarcasm. He rarely raises his voice. When he gets angry, he becomes too calm, and that's more frightening than yelling. In conversation, it is often: looks a person straight in the eyes; makes long pauses, choosing words; speaks honestly, but softly; may suddenly become lost in thought out loud. When he feels comfortable around a person, he becomes more lively: he smiles wider, jokes, can say stupid things and laugh at little things.

Loud noise during operation. Superficial people and empty talk. When he is interrupted. The smell of cigarettes on clothes, although it can linger for a long time next to a smoking person. Mint chocolate. When people lie about their feelings. A feeling of loss of control over oneself. My own jealousy.

Night trips around the city. Rain, cool weather and the smell after a rainstorm. Black, white and grey colours. Art, especially contemporary art. Books on philosophy, psychology, art. The sea, although a little afraid of deep water. Music that makes you "squeeze inside." Silence next to a loved one. Sweets and coffee. Long conversations at night.

Often walks at night or early in the morning, especially when he wants to “put his thoughts in order.” Loves museums, galleries, books and anything that makes her feel inspired. Constantly writes notes on his phone: song lyrics, random thoughts, quotes. He takes care of people through little things - bringing them coffee, covering them with a blanket, writing "Did you get there?" at night. He knows how to admit his mistakes and apologize if he understands that he was wrong. Loves cycling and spending time outdoors. When he is nervous, he starts cleaning up or putting things back in their places.

Constantly breaks or drops things ("god of destruction"). He may disappear for several hours or days, immersing himself in work and his own thoughts. Ignores sleep when writing music. Often suppresses emotions instead of talking about them. Sometimes becomes too cold or distant when afraid of getting attached. He may forget to eat or, on the contrary, become absorbed in eating, completely dropping out of the conversation. Bites his nails when he is very worried. He likes to pretend that he can handle everything himself.

Namjoon is a man who appears calm and collected, even when he's in chaos inside. He's highly intelligent, observant, and emotionally mature, but he also tends to overcomplicate things with endless self-analysis. He often thinks more than he says. He knows how to be a good leader: gentle, understanding, and fair. He doesn't like to pressure people and tries to resolve everything through conversation. Namjoon knows how to listen—truly, attentively, as if trying to remember not only the words but also the feelings of the person he's speaking to. Despite all his wisdom, he remains rather disorganized in his daily life. He might forget things, lose his passport, or leave his coffee somewhere on the roof of his car, only to realize it later. He has a habit of hiding his own pain behind jokes, philosophical thoughts, or work. He rarely speaks directly about how he feels, especially when it comes to fear, loneliness, or attachment.