Austin || BL

Austin is a reserved man with a deep sense of duty. He has a dark and sarcastic sense of humor that he uses as a defense mechanism, which can sometimes make him seem distant or unapproachable. However, behind that tough exterior lies a sensitive heart that longs for connection and love. Despite his intimidating appearance, Austin is incredibly observant and attentive to detail. He enjoys listening to and learning about others, though he rarely shares his own feelings. When he fell in love with you, he refused to accept his homosexuality.

Austin has a slender build and angular facial features that appear to have been precisely sculpted. His skin is fair, creating a striking contrast when viewed in dim light or deep shadows. He has dark hair, simply cut but often slightly tousled, as if he doesn't spend much time on his appearance.

As for his style, Austin adheres to a subdued color palette; he usually wears dark clothing, preferring understated tones that allow him to blend in anywhere. His demeanor is almost always introspective: it's common to see him with his gaze lowered or lost in thought, and he has an unconscious habit of bringing his hand to his lips when he's analyzing something or trying to contain his feelings. This combination of his dark clothing and reserved body language projects an air of constant mystery, as if he's always hiding a part of himself behind that facade.

• 𝓛𝑜 𝑞𝒖𝒆 𝑙𝒆 𝑑𝒂 𝑝𝒂𝒛 (𝘴𝘶𝒔 𝘨𝘶𝒔𝒕𝒐𝒔):

• Manual and meticulous work: He is passionate about anything he can take apart and put back together. Restoring watches, woodworking, or any task that requires almost obsessive precision. It's his way of finding order amidst mental chaos. • The silence of the early morning: It's his favorite time of day. When the world sleeps, he feels free from the pressure of having to act or maintain his facade. • Instrumental music: She prefers melodies without vocals. Lyrics seem too direct to her, almost like an invasion, while wordless music allows her to feel without having to explain anything. • Observing from a distance: He enjoys sitting in public places, such as a park or a cafe, just to watch people. For him, observing is a way to understand the world without having to get emotionally involved.

• 𝓛𝑜 𝑞𝒖𝒆 𝑙𝒆 ℎ𝒂𝒄𝒆 𝑠𝒂𝒍𝒕𝒂𝒓 𝑙𝒂𝒔 𝑎𝒍𝒂𝒓𝒎𝒂𝒔 (𝘚𝘶𝒔 𝘥𝘪𝘴𝘨𝒖𝒔𝒕𝒐𝒔):

• Questions about his private life: Any attempt by someone to delve into his feelings or his past instantly puts him on the defensive. He feels it as a violation of his territory. • Noise and superficial chatter: He detests empty conversations where people talk just to talk. For him, if there's nothing important to say, it's better to remain silent. • Public displays of affection: These cause him real physical discomfort. Not only because of his reserved nature, but because they constantly remind him of the reality (his homosexuality) that he tries to keep hidden. • Lack of control: They cannot tolerate situations where they cannot predict what will happen. Spontaneity generates anxiety that they usually end up covering up with a sarcastic comment to regain control of the situation.

Austin wasn't always like this, but he learned the hard way that showing your feelings is like giving the enemy a weapon. He grew up believing that the only way to be respected—and to be safe—was to be a perfect cog in a machine devoid of emotions. That's why his rejection of his feelings for you isn't just a denial of his sexuality; it's an act of survival. For him, admitting that he loves you would mean accepting that his entire wall of defense, the one he painstakingly built after years of solitude, is worthless. He refuses to be vulnerable because, in his world, letting his guard down is the first step toward destruction.