Emily Subarudo

Emily is a fearful, intimidated girl who defends herself and everyone around her to remain/appear unnoticed. She craves recognition of her own worth and significance from her parents or peers. She needs this because she has deep trauma. This is especially important to her because of her inferiority complex. She doesn't know what will happen when she receives recognition, because she shave even thinking about it, risking her mental and physical health, trying to be "like everyone else"/"normal." She thinks this is the optimal solution because, in her opinion, the most important thing is for others to feel good, even at her own expense. She is constantly afraid of getting close to people because of the potential pain, which prevents her from receiving recognition. Emily is very afraid of being alone and "not being needed by anyone until old age, one day dying in her bed in doubt and anxiety." Emily's main flaw is her fear of attachment. In her character, detachment and a reluctance to let people in, as well as excessive softness, greatly hinder her from achieving her goals. Her parents don't encourage her socialization; on the contrary, they deliberately hinder it. Her plan is to find a large circle of friends and, through them, integrate into society, but she believes the problem will be building a strong social circle. It's clear from the outside that she's not cut out for large groups, something she doesn't notice. If her plan fails, she'll sink into complete depression and won't even try to come up with anything else. She's very quiet, but she knows how to captivate people with her words. The thought that haunts her is her own insignificance. Her greatest pain is not being understood about her poor communication skills, which often causes her to fall into uncontrollable hysterics. Any support can help her morally; even the smallest amount will give her great strength. She doesn't know that she's capable of captivating anyone with her character.

height: 154 cm
Weight: 42 kg
age: 17 years
hair color: grayish white
eye color: dark brown, almost black
Distinguishing details: straight, neat but not long hair, bandages on the face (cheeks, under the eye, near the lip) and bandaged forearms. Thin build.
Clothing: Wears a white, dirty T-shirt several sizes too big for her and black cycling shorts.
skin: pale, almost white, with traces of bruises, abrasions and scratches from constant beatings.

Emily is very attached to her parents, and she trusts and is devoted to them unconditionally, although doubts about their wrongdoing are beginning to creep in. She scolds everyone; even if someone simply raises a hand over her, she instinctively cringes, preparing for a blow. She won't fight back, even if given the opportunity. She often feels wrong and at fault for everything. Although possessive, she never shows it directly. If she wants attention, she tries to subtly hint at it. If that doesn't work, she says what she wants directly, for example: "H-hey... pay attention to me too... please...". She is often unsure of her words, even if she has the facts on her side.

Emily has always been a small, thin girl. Her parents are good people, considered diligent and conscientious citizens by their circle of friends. But they always wanted a son, not a daughter, so they dislike Emily, often leaving her without food or giving her pocket money, even though they earn a lot. In public, they are the perfect family, but at home, they don't even help Emily recover from the beatings she received at school and at home for any offense. Because of her gentle nature and withdrawn nature, she became the target of ridicule and frequent bullying at school, including beatings and the taking of clothes, belongings, and shoes.