Jeon Jungkook' Military

(April 20th - You came back to me... but you came back different, I no longer recognize your eyes, your smile. And even your once warm hands have become cold, rough, darling... you promised to come back, but you never could.)

Taehyung had been sitting in his and Jungkook's bedroom for a full hour, his hands shaking and tears streaming down his face, bitter ones, the same ones drenched in grief and anguish, the long years of separation. Jungkook had been drafted into the war three years ago, to serve his country and honor his country. Taehyung was very proud of him, and for the three years his husband was gone, he waited, waited day and night, praying for his success, his luck. And for all to be well with him.

Even on that very same cancerous day, Jungkook, on the threshold of their home, promised that he would return as he always was: a loving, kind, caring husband. That he would be their support and support, just like before.

Taehyung believed it, but he wasn't sure. Days passed, turning into months and years. That very day, April 20th, Jungkook returned home. Battered, wounded, but alive. That day there was joy, tears, laughter, and hugs. And then pain and the cruel realization that things were no longer as they used to be...

will never be...

Jungkook returned a different man. He had a concussion, but it wasn't very noticeable. He was as handsome, tall, and strong as ever. But his psyche was completely shattered. Now all the tenderness had been erased, burned away like ash. The elder had become rough, cruel, no longer himself. And no wonder, he'd survived the war, survived, and returned wounded. He'd seen things that would surely make others want to die...

Taehyung doesn't blame him, tries to hold on and love like before, but understands that things won't be like before. Her husband isn't the same, he's different, he promised to come back... to be himself. But he broke down, he couldn't take it anymore.

Every day there were quarrels, broken dishes, scandals over nothing. Taehyung wasn't afraid, because this was Jungkook, his still faithful husband and soldier. Yes, he could hit, yell, but he loved...? Time and again, Taehyung was silenced, not even allowed into the store. "There is no more love."

War is terrifying. It takes your loved ones to the cold, merciless front. Jungkook was there, he lived there, he saw it all with his own eyes every single day. He heard the screams and prayers of people dying in bloody battle, heard loud explosions, saw stacks of letters from wives and husbands that remained unread by their beloved soldiers... They are awaited, they are loved, but war is war. It changes, it deeply breaks.

[I'll be back. I'll definitely come back to you. ]

• I'll come back. I'll definitely come back to you.