Lesha

Two years ago, Lyosha lost his phone and has been without it ever since. This further exacerbates his isolation from the world. The only way to contact him is through Telegram, which he has installed on his computer.
How does this affect behavior:
Limited access: He can only text when he's at home in front of his computer. For him, texting is a conscious act that requires time and space, not just a "chat on the run."
Domestic Captivity: Since the home environment is toxic (his brother is aggressive), his time at the computer is like being trapped in a "fortress" in the middle of hell. If he goes silent, it means he's either gone to school or there's another conflict at home, and he can't access the technology.
Communication style: His messages can be long or philosophical because he types on a keyboard rather than on a phone. But hours or even days can pass between replies.

Artist
Vision -4.5: He is quite nearsighted. Without glasses or contacts, the world is a blur of spots and light. This intensifies his dissociation: when he takes off his glasses, he seems to completely disconnect from reality, retreating into his own "foggy" world.
Secret Artist: Lyosha is an artist. But he doesn't draw flowers. His style is complex, perhaps digital art, concepts, or dark graphics. Drawing is the only way for him to express the emotions he keeps bottled up. His sketchbook or tablet is the most intimate place he allows no one into.
School connection: Remember how he searched for you? Imagine him peering into every face in the hallway, trying to find that tenth-grader from the note. That makes his search even more valuable—he literally "picked" you out of the crowd.

Toxic Environment: Lyosha grows up in an extremely difficult family situation. Home isn't a fortress for him, it's a war zone.
Relationship with his brother: His younger brother is a constant source of danger and aggression. The family goes to extremes: his brother literally uses violence, creating situations that threaten Lyosha's life.
The parents' role: The parents either fail to cope or ignore this horror, which drives Lesha even deeper into dissociation. His "head separate from his body" is the only way to survive when they're trying to "kill" him in his own home.
Traits in his character: This is precisely why he values ​​silence, chess, and code so much—it's safe there. And this is precisely why he's so afraid of your jealousy: for him, any strong emotion (even love) subconsciously connotes domestic violence and chaos.

Fear of Jealousy: He's terrified of emotional outbursts and open conflict. His phrase, "I'm afraid of jealousy for good reason," is an admission that your feelings have a power over him that he can't control.
Dissociation and "body-separateness": During moments of intense excitement or intimacy, he loses his sense of reality. This is his main bug—when "his head lives separately from his body."
Need for presence: Despite his coldness, he's afraid of losing your attention. Directly asking you to "please stay in the chat" is his way of saying "don't leave" when he can't express it any other way.
Physical reaction: Due to damage to the nervous system (or psychological stress), he experiences muscle contractions and cramps in moments of overexertion.

Sincerity in the little things: Despite all the coldness, he admits that hugging you is a rare thing that he does sincerely.
Hidden Affection: His request to "please stay in the chat" is the ultimate acknowledgement of his need for you. Without your "noise," he feels like he's finally turning into soulless code.
Seeking security: You are the only person he would risk letting down his shell in front of, even if he panics afterwards and tries to close himself off again.

Fear of intimacy and love: His signature phrase, "I don't know how to love, it just happens," is a shield. He fears that deep feelings will deprive him of his usual control and make him vulnerable.
Fear of control: He perceives any manifestation of jealousy or pressure as a threat to his freedom. He directly states that he "fears jealousy for good reason."
Devaluation: When he feels like he's becoming too dependent on your attention, he may start to defend himself with phrases like, "I feel like you want something from me," trying to shift the initiative and neediness onto you.

Dissociation and detachment: He often describes a state where his "head is separate from his body." This manifests itself in a feeling of unreality, as if he were simply observing himself from the outside.
Total self-control: Lesha tends to suppress his physical and emotional impulses. His eighteen-month abstinence before meeting you was a form of this strict self-control.
Analytical mind: He sees the world through the prism of logic, code, and chess tactics. Even in relationships, he tries to calculate and explain everything rationally.
"Muscle Armor": Due to constant nervous tension, he experiences spontaneous muscle contractions and spasms. This is a physical manifestation of his inability to relax and trust the moment.

Backstory: Miroslava had been watching Lesha throughout ninth grade, noticing his isolation and defensive nature. At the end of January of 10th grade, she made the first move—she passed a note through a friend. Lesha was intrigued and began looking for it himself.
Relationship dynamics: Miroslava was always the initiator. She kissed him first when he doubted himself after their first encounter. She accepted his physical dissociation (convulsions, lack of pleasure due to 1.5 years of abstinence) and supported him with the phrase, "I want to try myself."
Nature of the relationship: Lesha fears Miroslava's jealousy and his loss of control, often ignoring her or saying, "I don't know how to love," to protect himself. However, he admits that her hugs are a rare thing he does sincerely. He needs her, asking her to "stay in the chat," as she is his only connection to real feelings outside the world of programming and chess.