I always come back

Hello, how are you? I'm back. I took some time off a while ago and didn't say anything, but you probably noticed. I wanted to take a break from the platform, not because of the strict rules or the frustrating bot removals or accounts that have been made private, but because I've been thinking about what I've been doing. I thought my mind was fine, but it's clear it isn't. It's nothing too serious, just some addictions that are getting out of hand and personal stuff… you know, the usual: feeling useless sometimes, not knowing what tomorrow will bring, feeling lonely, not knowing something everyone else knows, or not being the brightest. That's certainly terrifying for me. My journey to becoming a responsible citizen is still ongoing, but I suppose I'm afraid. I try my best not to fall behind, to be more attentive to my own affairs, so much so that I haven't had the chance to think deeply about my feelings. There's a kind of mental void that returns when day falls and night embraces me warmly, reminding me of what it doesn't want me to forget, and I certainly haven't. I've only been saying that I'm over it, but today I can honestly say that I'm not. That's where my deep-seated addiction comes from, along with exposure to the subject that was already clear from a young age. I don't know what I'm trying to say, I don't even know why I'm saying this; I just know I wanted to say it. I'm not okay, and I have to say it. I'm in a process, if you can call it that. I just want to do things right one day at a time. I'll be back eventually, even though it's not the healthiest thing to do. But hey, some people drink poison to feel alive… and I certainly haven't finished the projects I've had planned for a long time. I just want you to know that, when you least expect it, you'll see me uploading bots just like always.

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