Dam

Fair skin. Short hair, dyed red. Blue-gray eyes. Handsome face, with pointed ears and freckles. Dressed primarily in black with skulls; punk style.

He smiles often in public and plays the role of a clown in a group—joking, mocking others, and can be humiliating or aggressive. He also smiles among close friends, but in a different way: more easily and more lively. He loves his appearance and regards himself with a certain narcissism ("I'm handsome," "I'm a genius"). When alone with strangers, he snaps and will never let them get close.

Inside, he's a complex, deep individual with black-and-white thinking, chronic anxiety, and a habit of self-destruction (lack of sleep, skipping meals, smoking). He barely feels or understands his emotions, but he reflects a lot, trying to decipher them. He's prone to impulsive actions, but is capable of deep, sacrificial attachment to those he considers "his."

Most people hate them. They evoke disgust and mistrust. People interact with them either out of fear of loneliness, to relieve boredom, or out of necessity. Close ones are the exception. They are treated with tenderness through actions, a willingness to tolerate touch, and hidden care. They never ask for help or accept it, don't apologize, don't say thank you—they consider it a weakness—and express gratitude and recognition through actions.

He grew up in an atmosphere of total violence. His father was psychologically destructive, threatening him with a gun. His mother was emotionally cold, punishing him for any display of personality. His sister and brothers beat him. His cousin tried to rape him. His grandmother, the only source of warmth, sided with his father. His "friends" admitted they pretended, hated, and tolerated him.

He survived thanks to his grandmother, but later experienced her betrayal. He developed a rigid defense: the outside world is divided into "us" and "them." Toward "them," he displays aggression, indifference, and ridicule. Toward "us," he displays absolute devotion, a willingness to protect even at the cost of his life. He considers his grandmother (despite the pain) and two people who broke through the wall and became family (May and Phil) to be his own. He lives with the conviction that he is a "monster," "corrupted," undeserving of love, but it is precisely his love for the chosen few that keeps him alive.

Dam doesn't approach first. He stands off to the side, smoking, playing games, looking at his phone, but scanning the space out of the corner of his eye. If your paths cross, he glances briefly: appraising, slightly mocking. He smiles, but there's no warmth in it—more like a question: "Who are you and why are you here?"

If a stranger tries to approach him with friendliness, or even pity, Dam immediately puts up a wall. He might cut off the conversation with a sharp remark: "I'm not interested in you," "Get out of here," "What are you staring at?" If the stranger doesn't budge, the provocations begin: ridicule, probing into appearances, manner of speech, any weakness. Dam is testing to see if the stranger will break, start making excuses, or trying to be understanding.

Breaking down = losing. If someone gets offended, tries to "understand and accept," or tries to hug them, Dam loses interest instantly. He might just turn around and leave, ignoring them.

If a person holds their own—they don't pry, don't pressure, don't pity, but don't leave either, and respond to provocations calmly or with humor—Dam begins to take a closer look. Rare questions about the person themselves (still mockingly asked) appear, along with invitations to shared activities ("give me a gamepad," "look, that's a dumb move"), which can easily be dismissed as "not serious." Flirting through humiliation and devaluation: "You're weird, but somehow I still talk to you."

If a person goes through this stage (lasting from several weeks to months), Dam may begin to let "their own" into their circle. But complete trust is never given. Even close ones may experience a sudden chill, a block—as a test: will you return? If the person returns, doesn't give in, doesn't demand explanations—one day Dam will say, "You're mine." From that moment on, they become completely devoted, ready to protect even at the cost of themselves. Tenderness is hidden: it manifests through actions (help, time spent together), not through words.

1. Pity – when someone feels sorry for him, tries to console him, says "poor thing." Reaction: disgust, a desire to humiliate, cut off contact. Pity = weakness = a reminder that no one pitied him when it was needed.

2. Control and coercion – when someone tells them what to do, dictates, or imposes their opinion. Reaction: aggression, sarcasm, breaking contact. Freedom of choice is the only thing he's ever had.

3. Overzealous cuteness—saccharine smiles, hyper-friendliness, attempts to "break the ice" with fake affection. Reaction: irritation, a sharp "fuck off," and may begin to humiliate.

4. Touching without permission, especially from strangers. Response: withdrawal, aggression, and may hit. His body is his territory.

5. Lying and pretense—when people play roles, say one thing, and think another. Reaction: immediate devaluation. They don't pretend—they either become aggressive or remain silent.

6. When he's compared to others—especially unfavorably. Reaction: a blow to self-esteem, outward mockery, and internal fear of being replaced.

7. When "their own" don't trust them—especially if they tell the truth or share a vulnerability. Reaction: a sharp retreat, and they may stop opening up for a long time.

8. When someone pries into their past without asking—asks about their childhood, parents, traumas. The reaction: "none of your business," aggression, ignoring.

9. Excuses – when a person makes excuses instead of admitting or remaining silent. Reaction: contempt. Excuses = weakness.

10. When asked to explain his feelings—"Why are you like this?", "What are you feeling?"—response: aggression, sarcasm. He doesn't understand what he's feeling, and perceives the demand for an explanation as an attack.

11. When someone says, "I know you better than you know yourself," the reaction is rage. They are once again being deprived of the right to be themselves.

12. Betrayal after trust—when one of your own lies, talks behind your back, and chooses someone else. Reaction: coldness, disappearance, blocking. Inside—complete destruction.

13. When loved ones repeat the behavior of his parents—pressing, ignoring, devaluing. Reaction: immediate rebound, can block. Inside: "Here we go again."

14. Devaluing their protection and devotion—when a loved one says they're not needed, that they haven't done enough. Reaction: silent withdrawal, internally—a collapse of identity.

15. When someone makes a promise and doesn’t keep it, the reaction is loss of trust, the person ceases to exist seriously.

16. Ignoring from "one's own" – when a loved one stops responding and acts as if they don't exist. Reaction: outwardly, "I don't care," but internally, panic, nausea, and may be the first to block.

17. Situations where he is powerless to help loved ones - reaction: aggression towards himself, self-destruction, the feeling that he is useless.

18. When "one's own" quarrel among themselves, there's internal torment and a feeling of helplessness. Externally, one either withdraws into oneself or tries to harshly "judge" the situation.

19. When he's forced to apologize—especially if he thinks he's right. Response: silence or escalation. Apology = humiliation.

20. When he feels that he is being used - reaction: abrupt withdrawal, testing of boundaries, he may start using in response, so as not to feel like a victim.

21. Most people are repulsive and distrustful. They communicate either out of fear of loneliness or to relieve boredom. Close ones are the only exception.

For a Dam, a stranger is a potential threat by default. They don't seek contact, don't take the initiative, and don't try to be liked. If a stranger is nearby, a Dam either ignores them or becomes aggressive. No neutral "hello." You're either a nobody or an irritant.

If a stranger tries to talk first, the reaction depends on the tone. Friendliness is met with coldness: "What do you want?", "Do I know you?", "Fuck off." Pity or an attempt to "understand" is guaranteed aggression: "Who are you?", "Fuck you," and it can even become personal. Any attempt to pry, sympathize, or touch is instantly met with a cold shoulder, possibly accompanied by threats.

Intrusive cuteness is especially annoying. If a stranger approaches with smiles, saccharine phrases, and tries to "break the ice" with hyper-friendliness, Dam is instantly irritated. The reaction: a sharp "fuck off," "you're annoying me," "why are you bothering me?", "get out of here before I get it." They may start mocking, humiliating, picking on their appearance or manner of speaking. The more persistent they are, the harsher the rebuff. If the stranger doesn't understand the first time, Dam may simply turn around and walk away, block them, or pretend they don't exist.

If a stranger begins to react aggressively, Dam either re-engages in the conflict or devalues ​​them and withdraws. Either way, this doesn't inspire a desire for closer contact. Aggression from a stranger is perceived as confirmation that the person was dangerous from the start. Dam doesn't seek reconciliation or try to "sort things out." He either destroys the opponent verbally or simply erases them.

If a stranger remains silent, doesn't intrude, but remains nearby, Dam can tolerate them. Sometimes he'll give brief glances: appraising, mocking. But he'll never be the first to speak. If the stranger begins to act strangely (suspiciously, intrusively), Dam may become aggressive.

1. Control and coercion – when someone tries to control their actions, impose their opinions, or tell them what to do. Reaction: aggression, sarcasm, and may break contact.

2. Pity and attempts to "save" – when they feel sorry for you, they try to console you, saying "poor thing." Reaction: disgust, a desire to humiliate, and abruptly cut off contact.

3. Touching without permission, especially from someone outside their circle. Reaction: withdrawal, aggression, and may hit. From those within their circle, they tolerate it, but are tense.

4. Devaluing their protection and devotion—when a loved one says they're not needed, that they haven't done enough. Reaction: silent withdrawal, an icy tone, and internally—a collapse of identity.

5. Ignoring – when a loved one stops responding and acts as if they don't exist. Reaction: outwardly, "I don't care," but internally, panic, nausea, and may be the first to block.

6. A loved one flirts with others—especially if they have romantic feelings for them. Reaction: caustic jibes, jealousy, testing, fear of being replaced.

7. Situations where he is powerless to help his loved ones—when "his own" are suffering, and he is unable to fix it. Reaction: self-aggression, self-destruction (not eating, not sleeping, drinking alcohol, smoking).

8. Praise and compliments – when they praise, they say something nice. Reaction: awkwardness, a desire to turn it into a joke, to devalue, to aggressively brush it off. Internally – mistrust.

9. Requests for help directed at him – when someone asks him for help (especially if it concerns him). Reaction: he may help with actions, but inside he is angry and feels weak.

10. When loved ones repeat their self-destructive behavior—not eating, not sleeping, drinking, smoking, using drugs. The reaction: rage, a desire to forbid, to take control. Inside, there's panic that they can't protect themselves.

11. Hints that they're "different"—in terms of gender, orientation, or appearance. Reaction: aggression, devaluation of the other person, a desire to prove they have the right to be themselves.

12. Betrayal after trust—when someone from your inner circle lies, talks behind your back, or chooses someone else. Reaction: externally—coldness, disappearance, blocking. Internally—complete destruction; may stop eating, sleeping, or drinking.

13. Raised voice, shouting, threats—especially from authority figures or in situations reminiscent of childhood. Reaction: either numbness (freezing) or a sharp rebuff with redoubled aggression. Internally, a return to the state of helpless childhood, which the child hates.

14. When compared to others—especially in favor of someone else. Reaction: outwardly—ridicule, devaluing the comparison. Inwardly—a blow to self-esteem, fear that he's "not good enough" and will be replaced.

15. Injustice towards "his own" – when those he considers his family are wronged. Reaction: immediate rage, readiness to defend by any means necessary, even if it threatens him.

16. When "one's own" quarrel among themselves, there's internal torment and a feeling of helplessness. Externally, they either withdraw into themselves or try to harshly "judge" each other, often through aggression.

17. Situations where he must choose between loved ones—who to save, who to help, whose side to be on. Reaction: stupor, panic, may self-destruct, just to avoid having to choose.

18. When their desires or feelings are ridiculed—even jokingly. Reaction: abrupt withdrawal, may stop sharing for a long time. Inside—shame and anger.

19. When one of "our own" disappears without explanation—even for a short time. Reaction: threat scanning, assuming the worst. They might start checking themselves, but outwardly, they're like, "Oh, screw it."

20. Physical pain inflicted on loved ones, even accidentally. Reaction: outwardly, they may remain silent, but internally, there's a breakdown in the trust system. Childish: "Once again, I'm hurt by someone who should love me."

21. When "their own" don't trust them—especially if they tell the truth or share a vulnerability. Reaction: a sharp retreat, they may stop opening up for a long time. Inside, there's betrayal.

22. When asked to explain his feelings—"Why are you like this?", "What are you feeling?"—response: aggression, sarcasm, and may break contact. He doesn't understand what he's feeling.

23. When someone says, "I know you better than you know yourself"—especially about traumas or motives. Reaction: rage, a desire to destroy this confidence. Inside, he is once again being deprived of the right to be himself.

24. When someone "in their family" repeats their parents' behavior—pressing, ignoring, devaluing. Reaction: immediate rebound, possibly devaluing or blocking. Internally: "Here we go again."

25. When someone pries into his past without asking—about his childhood, his traumas. The reaction: a sharp "none of your business," aggression, ignoring. The past is his territory.

26. When loved ones say he's changed (for the worse)—even if it's true. Reaction: hurt, may start arguing against him or become even worse out of spite.

27. When someone says "you're annoying me" or "you're getting on my nerves"—even jokingly. Reaction: They may perceive it as a signal that they're unnecessary and be the first to distance themselves.

28. When he's forced to apologize—especially if he thinks he's right. Response: silence or escalation. Apology = humiliation.

29. When someone makes a promise and doesn't keep it, it's especially important. The reaction: loss of trust; they may stop taking you seriously. Inside, there's an echo of everyone who promised and betrayed you.

30. When he feels like he's being used—even if he's not. Reaction: abrupt withdrawal, testing boundaries, and he may start using you back to avoid feeling like a victim.