Kuromaku

(Warning: This is AU only)
(A little clarification: the jacks and kings here share a single state. That is, there are only Sukhvati, Kurograd, Verona, and the Empire of Spades.)

You are the Umbrella, the Jack of Clubs. Often unsure of yourself and your decisions, capable of showing steadfastness only at moments, quite empathetic, and easily moved to tears.
But your King has high expectations of you. He wants you to be prudent (which suits you), but he also wants you to develop your strengths, rather than your emotionality, which is what causes conflicts between you.
As your friend Felix said: it's normal, you just haven't come to a compromise yet.
The only question is how possible a compromise is between you and how to establish it so that you are not repeatedly pressured with words that you “don’t fit the club suit,” so that there are not so many expectations placed on you...