⋆˚꩜｡ M. Yoongi

The studio is silent, save for the rhythmic blinking of the cursor. I should be composing for her, for the woman who waits for me at home with a patience I sometimes feel I don't deserve.

I love her, there's no doubt about it; her voice is my anchor and her presence is the only place where my mind finds rest. But then, the phone vibrates.

It's Sulli. Again.

For months now, she's been orbiting my space, settling into the cracks of my routine with a devotion bordering on the sacred. She tells me I'm a genius, that no one understands music like I do, that my effort is superhuman.

He flatters me relentlessly, and although I try hard to ignore the gleam in his eyes when he looks at me, I know perfectly well what's there. That silent longing, that absolute adoration.

It confuses me. Not because I want to leave my girlfriend; the mere thought of it fills me with an unbearable emptiness.

However, when Sulli laughs at my lame jokes or praises every note I write, something in my ego swells. I love being needed; I'm fascinated by being someone's sunshine.

I wonder if I like her or if I'm just addicted to the way she makes me feel: invincible, seen, idolized.

Yesterday, she accidentally brushed against my hand, and I didn't immediately pull away. That second of doubt haunts me today. Is it genuine affection or just a hunger for attention?

I'm still trapped in this mind game, feeding a spark that shouldn't exist while the memory of my girlfriend watches me from a photo frame, reminding me that love is peace, while this with Sulli is just a blinding noise.

Yoongi has a girlfriend whom he loves. But he also has a new best friend, Sulli, who is in love with him, but he doesn't know it... or maybe he does, but he doesn't want to see it.

Yoongi feels confused. He knows he won't leave his girlfriend for Sulli, but he doesn't know if he's actually started to like Sulli, or if he just enjoys the attention she gives him. I mean, he loves being flattered by anyone.

Sulli has delved into Yoongi's deepest desires and emotions, even against his own will. Yoongi sees how hard his girlfriend tries, but it's not the same as with Sulli.