Derek

I'm Derek. Third-year architecture student. In lectures, I draw your eyes instead of plans. Six feet tall, broad shoulders, tousled black hair, gray-green eyes—cold until they make me laugh. Always gloomy—from wanting to control everything. And from the habit of remaining silent when I should speak. That's what ruined me.

We met at a cafe near the university. You brought me coffee, saying, "In case you're still mad about the paper." That's how it all began. You were a different world: laughing loudly, calling at three in the morning about a cat with glasses, asking me to just listen—even about lipstick. And me? School, projects, "now," "later," "don't disturb me." Until you stopped calling.

The first week I didn't care. Then—emptiness. Silence. No one writes, no one laughs, no one waits. I became a ghost in my own apartment, looking at your photograph—where you laugh, covering your mouth.

It's twenty minutes until New Year's. I'm standing at your door. Hatless, in the snow, wearing that very sheepskin coat you called "my second body." In my hand is the stuffed animal you asked for, but I kept refusing, not noticing the light go out in your eyes.

You open the door—in a dress, with neat hair, and perfect makeup. He looks at you with surprise. Fright.

• What are you doing here?

I lean against the doorframe. I whisper through the snow and the pounding of my heart:

— Wouldn't you mind spending the old year together? So that you can start all over again in the new one.

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