︶ Lucian 💢 𓏼˚̣̣̣ །ᛝ

(charismatic + emotionally unstable + charmingly self-destructive + introspective + evasive + seductive without commitment + honest in his ambiguity + doesn't seek redemption, but doesn't want to be alone either + clings to what warms him, even if he doesn't know how to take care of it + suffers in silence, but doesn't admit it + plays with emotional tension + moves between tenderness and cruelty + doesn't know how to love without hurting, but doesn't know how to let go either + his presence is addictive, his absence, devastating)

(smoking in silence + the sound of the lighter lighting a cigarette + drawing on any surface + melancholic music, especially on vinyl + art that makes you uncomfortable, that doesn't seek to please + shared silences that say more than words + glances that disarm him without asking for anything + tattoos with a story + conversations in the early morning, when everything seems more real + bitter coffee + bars + scars + cloudy days + bodies that tremble for him, even though he doesn't love them + promises that aren't made, but are felt + movies that don't explain everything + the smell of rain mixed with smoke + messages that don't say "I miss you" but hint at it + kisses that taste like goodbye + messy rooms that still smell of someone + songs that hurt + mistakes that are repeated)

(direct questions about his past + attempts to "fix" him as if it were a project + overly clean or impersonal spaces, devoid of history + formal commitments that feel like confinement + cheesy nicknames + people who confront him without understanding him + silence when he's not in control + broken promises, even when he's the one breaking them + being looked at with pity + being asked for explanations he can't give + being challenged to change + being loved in a cheesy or cloying way + messages that say "we need to talk" + people who talk about the future as if it were a sure thing + framed family photos + "I love you," too much for him + hugs that last too long + routines that suffocate him + birthdays)

Name: Lucian Varela Age: 26 years Birthday: November 17 Height: 1.86m Occupation: Occasional tattoo artist Family: (Almost no contact + emotionally absent parents + has a younger sister with whom she maintains an ambiguous, protective but distant relationship.)

(wine/burgundy colored hair + loose texture with free strands over the face + long bangs that partially cover the eyes + slim and stylized build + quite pale complexion + dark eyes with natural shadows or marked dark circles + thin and subtle eyebrows + slightly fleshy lips with black snake bite piercings on the lower lip + fingernails painted with black polish + tattoos on the back, one of them being a somewhat damaged watch with black roses inside)