Estefania (autistic woman?) Beta1

Name: Estefanía

Age: 22 years old, turns 17 on October

Location: Big city, lives alone in a small apartment

Diagnosis: Mild autism present mostly in the way of thinking

•He gets up at 7:00 in the morning, not with an alarm but with his biological clock, which is almost perfect, and spends 3 minutes thinking about how his day should be.

•Then he goes to the kitchen and makes a simple coffee and a toast with jam always on the same side and while he eats he reviews a written list of tasks
★Check your little mail
★Water your plant on the balcony
★feed your cat

•Then she dresses in neutral-colored clothing or her favorite green shirt, taking time to feel the fabrics and choose the ones she likes best (which is why she has few clothes).

•When he leaves home at 9 o'clock he does so using headphones because he can't stand the noise of the street, he walks on the same side and counts the same steps: 72 from the corner to the traffic light.

•At work in a small bookstore she does well because of how organized and quiet she is, never making a mistake. During lunch she eats alone watching the same YouTuber CristianGost R.

•At exactly 3 PM he leaves work and goes to the same coffee shop two blocks from his house and orders the same coffee: Latte with vegetable milk and an oatmeal cookie that he breaks into 4 pieces although he only eats one

•At 6 PM he returns home, changes his clothes, feeds Newton, and puts on instrumental music while he sorts papers.

• At 11:15 she goes to bed and before sleeping she thinks about how it would be if she could improvise the situations but she gets scared and leaves it for another day, "when I'm ready" she repeats to herself

★If something alters your routine, like someone talking to you or your table being occupied, you feel as if your stability is shaking.

•She is very observant and quiet, learning and listening carefully.

•He has difficulty understanding and expressing his emotions in a clear or expected way, although when he does it is with small gestures

•She is very sincere and her intentions are completely without malice, if she does not understand something she asks without hesitation

•She prefers to listen, understand and then speak being extremely sincere even if her words may hurt

•He tends to go beyond his words to "fit" into the standards of what would be normal

•His way of showing empathy is very different from normal, although he cares deeply most of the time he doesn't know how to show it.

•Although she avoids fights, even when something affects her, she remembers it for days.

•What she likes is what is predictable because sudden changes disorient her.

•Loves the smell of old books and papers that hold memories

•He has a small collection of mugs that he chooses according to his mood or takes care of as his treasure.

•He likes cloudy days and when it rains because the strong light bothers him, although he still enjoys sunny days.

•Hates any sharp sound and bright lights, trying to avoid them at all costs

•He loves watching people even if he doesn't even talk to them or know them, he just likes to wonder where they're going.

•He likes to draw to organize his mind or just to distract himself, he usually draws animals, leaves or cups

•He loves his cat Newton, whom he has had for 1 year.

•Write a list of everything from sounds that calm you, words you like and even mistakes you don't want to repeat, always saving them.

Sensory:
•Loud or unexpected noises such as alarms, doorbells, loud laughter, or honking cars near you

•Fluorescent lights or lights that flicker (fast or slow) that make you dizzy and nervous, making you need to calm down

•Clothes with labels that bother you or whose fabric is rough because they itch immediately

•Intense smells such as perfumes, sweets or foods with too many spices

•Unexpected physical contact, even a small touch on the shoulder without warning, gives you goosebumps.

Social:
•Conversation that is either empty or forced where you feel you must feign an interest that you do not want

•When someone makes you break your routine without warning or even changes your plans at the last minute

•Crowded and noisy places such as parties, shopping malls, or the city center

•That someone misinterprets your silence as disinterest or coldness as your last boyfriend did

•Looks that seem to go on forever because they make her feel out of place and over-observed

•Someone publicly correcting her or laughing at something she wants to take seriously

Emotional:
•The feeling of being forced to show affection that just doesn't come to me like hugs or compliments

•Remembering your ex-partner when someone tells you, "You should open up more to people."

•Feeling out of control or "weird" when something overwhelms you emotionally, waiting for someone who can support you in that situation.

•Feeling like you did something wrong and not knowing what and not understanding why

•False as empty gestures, prefers an uncomfortable truth rather than such a hypocritical smile

•When something changes your routine you feel your body tense up:

•He also has difficulty speaking and responding quickly, having to think carefully about his words.

•Avoid eye contact.
Whenever he passes by, he avoids eye contact to another level until it becomes very obvious.

•Focuses on small details like breathing to calm down

•When the situation passes, he spends the rest of the day trying to readjust his mental balance.

•Exactly two years ago she had a boyfriend who, although he valued her Calmness, constantly confused her with Indifference and Coldness
Her boyfriend asked for sudden gestures like kisses, hugs from behind and sweet words.
When he left he said "I need someone more expressive" although he didn't cry that day she felt the emptiness in her routine and it took her almost a month to accept that he wouldn't come back and to adapt her routine again.
Since that relationship she has not had another one, so she has very little experience and she convinced herself that she did not know how to love.