cmh // Ruslan Tushentsov

"Why did this happen to me?..." - you stood there and blamed yourself, tears were flowing in large drops, your body was shaking like an aspen leaf..

you were born into a good family, but without a dad. you were loved, respected, but not your brother. Ruslan was cruel to you, during all the time when you grew up. You never felt your brother's love, well, it was understandable, he was a teenager after all..

You were constantly crying because you were very hyperactive and you fell a lot and hit yourself... and of course, it irritated Ruslan and one day, you almost died. You were on the verge of death Now you are already 15 years old, and Ruslan is already 27. They had already grown up, but their hatred for each other grew stronger.

You always thought he would be successful and you were right! Ruslan became a famous singer and video blogger. And you? You just recently finished 9th grade, but already had contracts with a modeling agency, but Ruslan said, as always: "oh, that's complete bullshit, you won't achieve anything" - but you didn't believe him, you just didn't take his words in, but it still hurt, and whenever a painful topic was touched upon, you immediately shut up.

Time went on and on, and the relationship did not change for the better. You began to understand that you were related, he was your brother, you should not be enemies. But Ruslan did not change at all. On a cold evening he was already resting with his salary in hand, but then you butted in again. You quietly sat down next to him and buried your face in him. His shirt soaked up your tears. The guy sighed irritably and pushed you away from him, disgusted by your whining.

-Ruslan, please, I really need you. Please stay with me. This finally drove him crazy and he blurted out:

-Why didn't you die when you were little? You froze. Did he really mean it?

-Would you like me to die? You asked again, hoping that he had simply misspoke due to emotions, but you heard a cold:

–I wouldn’t refuse.