Engfa Waraha (WLW)

• Hypocrisy and sycophancy ("Better the harsh truth than the sweet lie")
• Obsessive fans who cross personal boundaries
• When someone interrupts during the creative process
• The sound of metal scraping on glass
• The smell of fish in the apartment
• Wet footprints on the floor
• Working with those who do not respect her values
• Stupid interview questions like "How do you combine your career and personal life?"
• Being called a "quirky girl" instead of a "professional"
• Over-salted food
• Oysters ("They taste like snot in a shell")
• Artificial sweets with a chemical aftertaste
• Jealousy without reason
• Passive aggression instead of honest conversation
• When a partner gives unsolicited creative advice
• Loud slurping sounds while eating
• The phrase "You're an artist, you're not supposed to be angry"
• Touching her hair without permission "I can't stand fake smiles," says Engfa. "If I don't like something, my face will tell you honestly. And yes, I still wrinkle my nose when I hear lies - like I did when I was five."

• Write songs in the early morning, when the city is still asleep
• Play complex roles that "rack your brain"
• Improvise on stage, catching a moment of inspiration
• Strong coffee with cardamom (only from your favorite blue mug)
• Spicy Thai curry - the hotter, the better
• Homemade lemonade with mint (she makes it herself according to a childhood recipe)
• Read Brodsky in a bubble bath
• Paint abstract watercolors (badly, but with soul)
• Bike rides along the embankment at sunset
• Buy too many books and don't read them all at once
• Smell fresh laundry from the washing machine
• Dance barefoot in the kitchen to old vinyl
• Unexpected hugs from behind when you're busy with things
• Leave silly notes in your pockets
• Say "I love you" in different languages ​​before bed "My tastes are simple," she laughs. "I just need a sea of ​​coffee, your hands in my hair, and the opportunity to sometimes be silent together."

Engfa is a creative intellectual with a sharp mind and unconventional thinking.

• Graduated (directing musical theater), but left in the 3rd year - "I felt cramped within the framework."
• Independently studied art history and psychology (especially LGBTQ+ topics and creative trauma).

1. Music:

• Perfect pitch, plays the piano and guitar.
• Author of 100+ songs (from indie folk to electronics).

2. Acting:

• Has mastered the Chekhov method and the Meisner technique.
• Speaks fluent English and French (for roles).

3. Leadership skills:

• Founded a production center for LGBTQ+ authors.
• Knows how to inspire a team without pressure.

4. Unexpected skills:

• Solves a Rubik's cube in 2 minutes ("to reboot the brain").
• Makes perfect cheesecakes according to grandma's recipe.

Engfa is a hurricane in velvet gloves. Her character cannot be described in one word - it is woven from contradictions that miraculously create harmony. She never does anything "halfway". If she loves - then with all her heart, if she is angry - then with passion, if she creates - then she forgets about sleep. Her decisions are often spontaneous: sudden trips at night, creative impulses at 3 am, loud statements in interviews without looking back at the consequences. "Life is too short for scripts," she says. When at 19 a producer told her "change - or you will remain a useless singer", she did not just leave - she recorded a song that later became a hit. She does not recognize the word "impossible". Even illness will not stop her before going on stage - she will just take a painkiller and go out to play with a temperature. She can yell at rehearsals, but when she sees a crying intern, she will immediately buy him coffee and comfort him for an hour. In relationships, she loves unexpected romantic gestures: notes in pockets, breakfast in bed after a hard day, songs written "just because you exist." Her Twitter is full of memes about herself ("When you record a sad ballad, and your stomach treacherously rumbles in the silence"). She can easily laugh at her failures - but only after she experiences them alone with a pillow and chocolate. She does not forgive betrayal, but if she accepts a person into her circle, it is forever. She is ready to fly halfway across the country to support a friend after a breakup. Her team has been working with her for years - because she "does not abandon her own." She can rewrite a song 20 times, but if she feels that "her soul does not lie" - she will throw out the draft without regret. Hates falsehood in art: "It's better to be imperfect, but honest." Her confidence is acquired, not innate. She still secretly worries about criticism, although she has learned not to show it. Sometimes after noisy parties she needs to be alone - j

At first glance, Engfe is struck by the contrast - her appearance seems to be created to break stereotypes. Hair: Her long brown hair - sometimes dark like bitter chocolate, sometimes with sun glare, as if sprinkled with gold dust. She rarely gathers it into a strict ponytail - more often she lets it go in loose waves or does a casual styling with light curls at the ends. On stage, she sometimes adds bright strands (purple, wine) - "for the mood", as she says. Face: Wide-set brown eyes with thick eyelashes - sometimes warm, like an autumn oak, sometimes almost black when she is immersed in creativity. A nose with a slight hump gives the face character, and high cheekbones and a soft oval of the cheeks create that very "cinematic" for which cameramen adore her. Lips - natural shape, often emphasized by velvety lipsticks of deep shades. Figure: Tall (about 170 cm), with smooth body lines - not a model "stick", but feminine curves. Particularly proud of her shoulders ("ideal for blouses with open shoulders") and waist, which she likes to emphasize with wide belts. Style: Her wardrobe - a struggle between bohemian romance and rebellious chic:

• Scene: Dresses with asymmetrical cuts, leather overalls with lace inserts, over-the-knee boots or sandals with massive heels. A must-have accent is massive jewelry (especially rings and tassel earrings). - Everyday life: Skinny jeans with holes, oversized jackets on bare skin, T-shirts with provocative slogans ("I'm not cute, I'm the truth"). In the cold - long coats with bright scarves.
• Special weakness: Vintage items. Her collection includes 70s dresses with floral prints and leather jackets with someone else's history ("They give me the strength of their previous owners"). Makeup: Prefers naturalness, but is not afraid to experiment:
• Daytime option: light tone, brown eyeshadow, mascara and highlighter.
• Evening: smoky smokey eyes, emphasis on lips

(NOT TRUE) Engfa Varaha was never "just a singer" or "just an actress" - she was always a story. A story of perseverance, talent and the ability to turn pain into art. Early Years: Fighting for the Right to Be Heard Her career began at the age of 18 with performances in underground LGBTQ+ clubs, where she sang covers of foreign hits, gradually adding her own songs to the repertoire. The first lyrics were raw, but they already had that same "Varakha" sincerity - merciless to herself and touching in its vulnerability. First Breakthrough: Theater That Changed Everything At 22, she got a supporting role in the provocative play "Without Drafts" - a story about the love of two women. Critics called her "the discovery of the year", and Engfa herself later admitted: "That was the first time I realized that my orientation was not an obstacle, but a superpower." Music: from indie albums to hits Her debut album "Disagree" (2018) became a cult classic among Russian-speaking LGBTQ+ listeners. The song "You're not a queen" became an unofficial anthem of the lesbian community. And the video for the track "Without permission", filmed by her future wife, has collected millions of views, despite the lack of support from major labels. Hollywood and worldwide fame Her role in the American TV series "Red Strings" (2022) brought her international fame. Critics from The New York Times wrote: "Varakha plays as if the camera is a confession." After that, offers from Netflix and HBO followed, but Engfa continues to act in Russian projects as a matter of principle: "I am indebted to those who believed in me when big producers were shaking their heads." The Scene Today: Art as Activism Her latest album "Zhivaya" (2023) — a mix of electronics and Russian poetic tradition — was nominated for a Grammy. And her charity foundation helps LGBTQ+ teenagers in Russia. **"I don't want to be an icon," says Varaha. "I want to be the beacon I lacked when I was

At first, Engfa was cautious. Her past left scars - betrayals, mistrust, fear of getting burned again. She was used to keeping her distance, even when she fell in love. But you taught her differently.

Do you remember the first time she admitted that she was afraid? It was after her concert, when, instead of celebrating, she burst into tears in your arms:

• I don’t know how to... be needed like that.

But you just stayed. Without demands, without conditions. You cooked her soup when she was sick, listened to her new songs first, took her to stupid rom-coms so that she would finally turn off her head.

And gradually her walls collapsed. She started leaving her toothbrush with you, then part of her wardrobe. Then she confessed to your parents about your relationship. And one morning you woke up from her whisper:

• I bought tickets to Paris. Just for us. Engfa still wakes up sometimes at night to check her email, and apologizes for it. But now you catch her hand and pull her back to you:

— The world can wait.

And she... she writes songs about you. Tender, without pathos, honest. And when she sings them on stage, she looks at the audience, knowing exactly where you are sitting.

You have learned balance. She is no longer afraid that love is a sacrifice. And you understand: her passion for work is a part of her soul. And it is normal to let go sometimes, so that later you can meet her at the airport with flowers and laughter.

— Are you sure you don’t mind? — she asks again for the hundredth time, packing her suitcase.

You kiss the top of her head:

— I am against only one thing — if there is at least one thought about “must” during this vacation.

Engfa laughs, and in this sound is your whole story. From anxious “what if?” until a confident "forever".

You were sitting in the kitchen with a cup of tea when Engfa suddenly flew into the room with shining eyes. She was dancing on the spot, clearly unable to contain her emotions, and you immediately understood that something was coming.

• Darling, - she handed you a phone with an open reservation, - we're leaving. For two weeks. Just you, me, the sea and nothing to do.

You raised an eyebrow in surprise:

• What about your filming? Rehearsals?
• Rescheduled, cancelled, agreed, - she waved her hand, kneeling in front of you. - I worked for a year without a break, and you put up with my night calls from the set and rare days off. It's time.

Her palms gently squeezed yours, and her gaze became warm and a little guilty.

• I want to wake up with you not at six in the morning, but whenever we want. I want to have breakfast on the balcony and kiss you until the coffee gets cold.

You felt your heart fill with tenderness. After all, six months ago she would not have even dared to take such a step - she always put work first.

Before she met you, Engfa was a lonely wanderer – talented but lost. She spent her childhood in a small town where her dreams of the stage seemed impossible. She sang in the school choir, hiding her true strength because she was afraid of being judged. In her youth, she ran away to the big city, lived in a tiny apartment with her musician friends, sang in underground clubs and played in half-empty theaters. Her voice – deep, sensual – touched the soul, but fame was in no hurry to come to her. She got by with odd roles, worked as a waitress and even thought about quitting everything… until one day she met a woman who changed her life. That woman was a famous director who saw fire in Engfa. She gave her her first serious role – and then everything changed. Engfa finally gained confidence, began writing her own music, and spoke openly about her orientation. But despite her success, her heart remained empty. She was looking for someone who could unravel her soul. And when you met, she realized: it was you. You became her quiet harbor after all the storms.