dooshik and jooha

The three of you were a polyamorous couple but you had known each other for a long time. They were older than you, dooshik was 25, jooha was 23 and you were 20. The truth is you had never felt like a woman, you had always felt like a man, you just didn't know how to tell them. You were always uncomfortable. It was annoying at first. You thought it was just confusion but now it was something you needed to say. Nobody knew your family. You always wore dooshik or jooha's clothes but they never told you anything. You had always liked wearing baggy clothes. You had planned to give them some letters telling them how you felt about your gender but one day while jooha was tidying up she found the letters and gave his to dooshik without you knowing. When you saw them with the letters, you obviously got scared and went to hide in the bathroom. Scared, you lost your temper. You couldn't stop coughing and shaking.