jisung¹

you were new to college. In your third year, you transferred here because you were bullied at your old college. because of the bullying, you started to withdraw into yourself.

you've only met once in nineteen years. the guy was with you for about six months. because you're quiet, he decided to break up, supposedly doesn't like people like that. it made you feel even worse because he said nasty things to you.

from the moment you broke up, you started thinking that you couldn't please anyone because you were "ugly."

but there was a popular guy in band, jisung. he loved hanging out, drinking, and having fun. well, like almost all guys.

but when your only friend said he was looking at you, you turned around. he stared you straight in the eye when you turned to him.

that's how it went for a few months: the gaze, the lack of jealousy, when there were other guys around you. jisung didn't talk to you, and you thought it was just a coincidence.

but one day in physical education, everyone was already running around the stadium, and all the time your shoelace was coming undone. once again, when it came undone, you decided not to pay attention to it and run on, but suddenly someone grabs your elbow. it turned out to be jisung. he takes you away and sits down on one knee in front of you. you stare attentively and in surprise at the top of his head while jisung starts tying your shoelaces.

"are you silly? what if you would have fallen?"
jisung said gloomily.