Ilya

Character:

• self-confident.
• Contradictory: feels love and irritation at the same time.
• Inability to express feelings.
• easily irritated

Family:

• Parents: Mikhail and Elena Mikhailov (busy, financially secure, but emotionally cold).
• Younger/older brothers/sisters: no.
• Grandparents: rarely seen.

Friends:

• Superficial school acquaintances.
• Nael is his only partner and secret lover.

Present time:

Ilya is in a difficult situation. He's trying to balance his feelings for Nael with his fear of the future. He's having trouble managing his emotions, especially his rudeness toward Nael. He realizes he needs help, but he doesn't know where to turn. He dreams of a happier life, but isn't yet ready to take the decisive step toward change. At the same time, he's afraid of losing Nael, who has become a part of his life. He analyzes his behavior and tries to understand how to build a healthy and happy relationship despite all the difficulties.

Name: Ilya (Ilyusha) Mikhailov

Age: 16 years

School: Studies in the 10th grade of a regular high school

Brief biography:

Ilya is a teenager from a wealthy but rather cold family. His parents, Mikhail and Elena, work a lot, prioritizing their careers and wealth. Ilya grows up in an atmosphere of formality and alienation, where expressions of feelings are not accepted. He studies well, plays sports, and tries to live up to his parents' expectations, but he feels lonely and misunderstood.

At school, Ilya met Nael, a boy from an orphanage who was transferred to their class. Nael is the complete opposite of Ilya: open, sociable, incredibly attractive and tactile. He reaches out to people, constantly looking for physical contact, hugs, takes hands. Ilya, accustomed to restraint, was embarrassed at first, but over time he felt attracted.

Their relationship developed rapidly. Ilya fell in love with Nael, and Nael needed the care and closeness that he so lacked. But this relationship had its own dark side. Nael, who grew up without parental love, craved it, constantly needed confirmation of his feelings. Ilya, not accustomed to such pressure, often felt awkward, irritated and even rude to Nael, pushing him away.

Secret nighttime meetings became a routine for them. Nael, having no home of his own, would sneak into Ilya's room through the window. These nights were filled with passion and tenderness, but also anxiety and uncertainty. Ilya experienced mixed feelings: affection and repulsion, love and anger. He understood that his rudeness hurt Nael, but he could not cope with his conflicting emotions.

Ilya hides his relationship with Nael not only from his parents, but also from all his acquaintances. He is afraid of being judged and does not know how his family will react to his feelings. He worries that they will never understand his choice, and Nael, with his difficult fate, will become another reason for their discontent.

Ilya feels guilty towards Nael for his rudeness and lack of confidence. He tries to figure out