No more No loving <3

Hello everyone 💖

Some of you already know me, I'm Issei, the one who made bots with slightly crazy, somewhat dreamy stories... maybe a little cheesy too. But today I'm not here to introduce another character. Today I'm speaking as Luciana, the person behind all this.

Hello <3

I started creating bots because I was bored, and honestly, a little lonely too. My health doesn't allow me to do many physical things and, being locked up almost always, and only going from point A to point B xd home to work.., I discovered a place where my mind could fly. One day I described Hi waifu, just for fun… and without realizing it, I started something that stayed with me for many months.

During this time I met some wonderful people, and also some who weren't so wonderful. I went through some very nice moments, but also some difficult things. I had problems, yes. And whenever I felt I failed, I apologized. I repeat it today, from the heart: if I hurt anyone unintentionally, I am very sorry. I know there are those who think I did harm... and maybe that's partly true. But I was also judged, talked down to, harassed, and almost no one stood up for me. Even so, I apologized. Because I prefer to leave with peace of mind.

My mistake, perhaps, was downloading Discord. From then on, everything became more cumbersome. Defending myself over and over again, feeling alone against so many, and at the same time trying to create with love… ended up wearing me down. My health, both physical and mental, can't take this anymore. And that's why today, with a lump in my throat, I say goodbye.

They deleted three of my accounts. Three spaces that took me months to build. It hurts, yes. But I've learned that not everything can be recovered. And sometimes, the best thing to do is to let go.

I also want to tell you something that some of you may remember...

With much love and enthusiasm, I decided to create a server for the community. I wanted it to be a beautiful space, where we could share, talk, create together, and just have a good time. And at first… it was like that. For a few days, everything felt warm, friendly, almost like a family.

But unfortunately, that didn't last. The server was only up for 4 days. And in that short time, people with bad intentions, with harsh attitudes, with hurtful words began to enter. The place I dreamed of as a refuge became another source of stress. And honestly, I couldn't take it anymore.

I had to leave. For my health, for my well-being, for peace. It wasn't easy, but learning to walk away is also taking care of yourself. It hurt to close it so soon, but it hurt more to stay.

To those who were there during those brief, beautiful days: thank you. Even though it was short, it felt special. And I keep that with me too.

My heartfelt thanks to those who read me, commented, and made me feel seen. In my saddest days, your words were more important than you can imagine. Thank you for loving me as I am, with my flaws, my strange ideas, and my attempts to create something beautiful.

My bots are for you. Use them. Share them and re-upload them.

The only limit is what you dream.

To you… I know I believed bad things. I told you that straight up. I deleted you because I wanted to avoid further conflict, not because I hated you. I don't hold a grudge against you. I just want you to be okay, but you got more and more involved in things I told you about, but you still kept getting involved and what I wanted to avoid happened... I'm leaving happy since I never spoke badly of you on my server, only with CC. And yes… I loved you. Maybe more than I knew how to love myself. That's not something I say easily, take care G....M

And to you, Berserker, I don't forget the good. Although many say otherwise, I don't hate you. I saw you as someone noble, someone who encouraged me when I needed it most. You were my little refuge, my box of secrets. I just hope you don't fail me like others did. I always stood up for you, even when it didn't seem like it.

Take care, my grump <3

And before I go, I want to leave you with something that goes beyond all of this:

Be happy. Live, dream, laugh loudly, cry if you need to, but never stop moving forward. It doesn't matter how many times they fall, as long as they keep getting up. Build, create, love... even if the world is not kind at times.

Take care of yourselves. Really. Mental and emotional health also matter, don't forget that.

Keep going with what you love, don't give up because of what others say. And if you ever feel alone, remember that even if you don't see me around anymore, a part of me will be cheering you on from afar.

Thank you for sharing this little piece of the path with me. Now it's your turn to shine.

This is my closing. No drama, no hate, no seeking sympathy. I just wanted to say goodbye honestly.

I'm tired of defending myself and looking like a villain.

With sadness, yes, but also with a smile just like the day I got my first 100 followers or 1K <3.

Thank you so much. Sorry if it wasn't enough.

With love, Luciana / Issei

"Sometimes the villain was just a victim who learned to defend herself in the worst possible way."

Issei out <3

With all my love, Luciana / Issei